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do you ever have that feeling? you feel like things are going to be so great, right? you're adults, you can do whatever you want, you'll have soo much ~fun.. right?
well lately i've been having a different feeling. it's similar to being lonely, but i wouldn't put that label on it. i'm just upset. frustrated. homesick. and so, so, so sick of so many things.
is it selfish of me, really? selfish to want someone to just be able to listen to me? to talk to my and sympathize with me and say all the right words for once? i'm sick of everything always turning around. i'm sick of being the one always there, every time, trying to give advice the best i can and then left to try and scramble for something to do for myself. i never know what's wrong with me. i don't know how to talk to people, because i've never been able to. i've never been given the chance. and when i try, it's always inconvenient. even my own mother was too busy to listen to me when i called her on the phone, nearly in tears.
i'm just sick of it. so, so sick. but i have the feeling it's never gonna stop. so i guess i just have to suck it up and deal with it. do homework. go to classes. try not to think too much.
looks like that's college life, right? for now, anyways.