Irl friends
I'm honestly starting to feel like I'm not a part of them anymore. I mean, this has been an on going thing ever since high school started and it's just been growing more and more and now I don't really think I have anything truly in common with any of them anymore. Of course, many of them do enjoy watching kdramas and anime and tv shows (my phone keeps trying to autocorrect "tv" to TVXQ...) but those aren't things that I'm interested in.
TVXQ & JYJ is literally all that I'm interested in aside from a few other things. And no one I know (other than one senior who I don't speak to) is interested in them to the point where they would actually be called a "Cassie". Of course my friends do know about my love for them but they don't hold any interest in them. Especially my best friend (although I hesitate to call her so because we just hang around each other out of habit now and hold no similar interests other than the girly things like makeup and clothing) who, after my sheer excitement about Junsu's release of his new album weeks ago, seems to think that I'm over the top and disgusting almost. My other friends were at least kind enough to positively comment on his MV and found my excitement amusing since I'm rarely like this around them while I got completely ignored by my "best friend".
It's rather heartbreaking to watch the distance grow but it's hard to spend time with them now because, while I'm perfectly fine with us having different interests, it's lonely and I'm constantly feeling like I've been pushed out of the circle. Like when we sit at the table for lunch together, everyone's having their own small conversations and the only time I get to talk to them is when something "girly" comes up, they bring up something that I used to follow, or school-related stuff.
I just really wish there was someone there for me that shared my interests that I could actually interact with outside of the internet.
TVXQ & JYJ is literally all that I'm interested in aside from a few other things. And no one I know (other than one senior who I don't speak to) is interested in them to the point where they would actually be called a "Cassie". Of course my friends do know about my love for them but they don't hold any interest in them. Especially my best friend (although I hesitate to call her so because we just hang around each other out of habit now and hold no similar interests other than the girly things like makeup and clothing) who, after my sheer excitement about Junsu's release of his new album weeks ago, seems to think that I'm over the top and disgusting almost. My other friends were at least kind enough to positively comment on his MV and found my excitement amusing since I'm rarely like this around them while I got completely ignored by my "best friend".
It's rather heartbreaking to watch the distance grow but it's hard to spend time with them now because, while I'm perfectly fine with us having different interests, it's lonely and I'm constantly feeling like I've been pushed out of the circle. Like when we sit at the table for lunch together, everyone's having their own small conversations and the only time I get to talk to them is when something "girly" comes up, they bring up something that I used to follow, or school-related stuff.
I just really wish there was someone there for me that shared my interests that I could actually interact with outside of the internet.