Comments | xiatian21: Going back to the past

xiatian21

Going back to the past

May 03, 2015 03:20

Today I noticed how my external hard drive was starting to fill up and so I decided to go through and delete what I didn't need anymore and during my exploration, I came across my hidden stash of favorite manga. It's actually a mesh of doujinshi and manga but I think the bulk of it was my saved CLAMP mangas haha. It was really a throwback because I ( Read more... )

hm, this is very diary-like wow, personal

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ichigotabetai May 3 2015, 23:35:23 UTC

I haven't felt that way in ever. I get no joy from reading anymore.

xiatian21 May 5 2015, 01:30:07 UTC

Maybe it's just me that feels that way because books and mangas were really all that I used to cope with the world at the time. My middle school years were honestly my hardest years (although that's rather debatable with everything that's happened in high school) because I'd developed a penchant for physical self-harm when I fell into frequent depressive moods which really... wasn't pleasant... (luckily no cutting but it was still pretty bad) So I inevitably developed a strong attachment to reading as of a result.
Also it's okay that reading isn't exactly your cup of tea anymore. It's the same for a few of my friends as well-- a couple cling to reading as I do but two of them (my "best" friend and a bro) have all together dropped reading for other things like watching movies or gaming because reading wasn't really as enjoyable as it used to be. So maybe you can find other things to brighten up your day? ovo

ichigotabetai May 6 2015, 06:48:39 UTC

I have also not read a long novel or well manga in years because I don't think I have the patience to be able to concentrate any more. same reason I also read fanfiction . I don't know I don't feel like being pulled in by another person's storyline. For example, I have a book by Amy Tan but because I know the character goes through bad times, I don't want to read it. I have lost touch but I'm glad you're finding it again and I don't know I don't know what else is going to be enjoyable I mean. Bit lost.

Also self-harm ? Unnie is giving you pissed off looks from far away.

Ps : I wish I had a sibling too though ofc they don't all turn out nice. Luck of the draw and all that.

xiatian21 May 7 2015, 06:36:37 UTC

Mmm, I get you on that. For me, I'm perfectly fine with being dragged into feeling a character's emotions and feeling heartbroken because the genres that I read are fantasy-related and no way close to reality. I can't stand reading slice-of-life works (excluding the very sweet heart-warming ones) or non-fictions because they're realistic and make me think of putting myself in their place. Like even now, thinking back, I can't remember ever reading a non-fictional/slice-of-life story for fun.

Erm, well, uh, at least I found a healthier way of relieving stress in the end??? Writing depressing poetry/narrations of life are exceptionally wonderful. (>A<;;) But, all in all, all I can really say is that I'm just glad it never got too bad to the point where it really harmed me and everything healed up nicely ( ... )