walking threw the puddle
wet cold
falling to pieces
I could fall apart right here
no one would notice I was
gone
till
daylight
but they even notice then

i hate myself

wock: ok lol ( Read more... )

that i felt like this in my entire life. In that moment I made the biggest mistake of my life. And I wonder if ill make it again. There is no reason not too. I don't matter to anyone. Im just there.

when it all breaks down.....

Lost inside myself
screaming fighting
i CANT SEEM TO
ever win
im losing this race
with myself
struggling
failing
wanting
needing
falling behind in
this race
the sun is setting
and the tide is comming
im sinking in the wake of the tide
my ankles barried
in the sand
cant seem to dig myself out
of this tide
are you going to dig me out
our watch me sink

Is this how I should be
Broken down on bloody knees
screaming to the sky
hating myself
for my mistakes
kneeling in the sand
looking up to the darkened sky
nobodys listening to my crys
with open hands dug
into the sand
I look out to the
sea
wondering when I can
fineally be free
of my own
mistakes.

( Read more... )

• Not sleeping
• not eating
• scratching
• cutting
• crying

your such a waste of a person.
pretend to be a friend
with ur hidden agenda
try to steal ur bestfriends boyfriend,
then lie about it after,
fall in love with other so called bestfriend,
when you know they love someone else and never would love you,
act like my gf and try to get to me to break up with my bf, thinking id want you
and i still ( Read more... )