Comfortably Numb

[xinejaquette]

I haven't written in a really long time. I have very little to report. My life seems very boring to me. In fact, I don't completely recognize my own behavior these days. A lot has changed. I am happy to report that nothing is wrong but I am confused because nothing is right either. I feel numb. I have tried various stimuli in an attempt to register

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[noss]

Hey hon, I've been wondering how you were doing.

Maybe you should check in with someone, just to talk about you're experiencing, if it's normal, etc. Maybe it's a side-effect of stopping meds after YEARS of taking them, there's bound to be a refractory period. For so long you have had your moods interfered with by meds and it might take awhile to figure how to deal with life and emotion from an unmedded perspective.

Sometimes feeling empty or unmotivated, unable to feel anything, can be a sign of depression. It might not be the depression you're used to and completely unrelated - you know, a "normal" mild depression, we all get them sometimes. I often go through periods of feeling numb and disconnected, especially when I'm stressed or going through a lot of (even positive) changes. It's like I can't handle feeling everything so instead I feel nothing.

I don't know if this helps. I don't know if you want to be alone for awhile. But if you want to get together for coffee or something and talk, I'd love to see you, it's been ages.

My friend My Friend

[ravynstar]

Yup, I have those feelings. Those feelings of just wanting to disconnect with everything and everyone. In a way, it is an artist block, I guess you can call it. When things I enjoy I don't care for, not listening to music, reading a book, being with people.

Sorta weird right now, that I am in a quasi one of those, it is more of tell me why I shouldn't hate humanity. Which is making me want to disconnect from them except for a select few. Which sucks at work when you have to deal with people!

I do agree on talking with someone... sometimes I feel I should do that...

anyways, great to hear from you my friend yonder north.

One of these days when I get to run amuck in Portland, I shall have to visit with you.

Abraços e beijos

[hanashibeta]

Has anyone else felt numb for extended periods of time?

only from 1994 to the end of 1998, and several long periods between 1998 and now. the past week, for example...

it happens. you know i came out of it originally with your help, and i think it's a perfectly fine and effective means of adjusting to things. you're adjusting to being off medication, which is probably about as significant as my adjustment back in '98; just give your body and mind time to learn what lack of medication feels like and how to handle feeling things relatively safely without just feeling almost nothing. i didn't ever consciously decide to stop being frozen; it just took time for my mind to realize that i could actually handle things. of course it probably wouldn't hurt to consciously decide to stop being frozen, but i still think it's more up to your subconscious to decide on its own time.