graphic legendary wise tornado catching love touch lifelong tambourine guitar liason lifeline calendar waxing waning leftover madness calculated sanity whitewash creampuff degenerate scallion debutant goathead godfreid liar panties raincoat ghastly gibberish scenery embroidery sceptical literal wahscloth flooring pairing sighting hatred california ( Read more... )

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glove her love but lately it all feels like a storm of confusion. i cant think anymore. anymore thinking is futile. anymore i cant spell simple things. anymore i never know where im waking up. what town am i in? is the dog in or out? movement. seasons. compromise compromise compromise sweetie. i mean, im not gonna say its a nightmare... its love in ( Read more... )

during the day you'll will be able to find her in the art room, among leftover canvases and light. at night she'll be next to me, tangled in my limbs and my love.

what cold? what changing season? what day is this?

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i will not put up walls.
i will not act out.
everything will be just fine.
im gonna breathe.
and i may pace a little.
but im mostly gonna not act out.
im gonna breathe and
be silent and let it go.

anything else would be pointless.
so im breathing. im breathing.
and clenching my teeth a little.

sensory overload. fork in the road. going back isnt an option. i go forward.
i need my head and my heart. they need to understand.
my inabilities pound through my blood.
pressuring & throbbing. im crying & losing. im a maniac.

you dont believe any of this.... do you. statement not a question.

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this: know whats funny? it has never happened that when i have offered it, anyone has ever taken it. it being me, of course.
that: not ever??
this: never. no. my body yes. but not me. not my love. nope.
that: you secretly like the drama.
this: i make less than brilliant decisions.
that: its not bad decision making.... is it?
this: to love?
that: yeah. but ( Read more... )