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Yesterday when i had school with lisa (my school tutor), we talk so much, we never get wrok done. But we doing some work for health and she mentioned a really great tid bit to go by in life. Her father told her this when she was my age. "What you dont like that your parents do,dont follow, but what you like in them pass on."
That made me think alot! Because its soo true. I look at my dad and i think how great of a man he is. Me and my sisters childhood memories are all revolved around him! Then i look at my childhood with my mom and think how could she do such things to me, be so mean, not care that her children dislike her for her disease that can be cured, no memories what so ever of other than mom being drunk. So sad. I dont feel bad for her at all because its her own fault.
Why i bring this up is becuase my dad and i started to talk last night and i brought up some memories of when we would go outside catch leaves and how muh fun that was. How he would drive me everywhere...and then i kinda stopped because blake was cryin. This morning me my mom and dad were sitting downstairs talking and my dad says " jen what were you sayin last night about memories " and i said "we had alot...memebr dad the cruises with my friends and kelyl that you took us on...member that time when we cought leaves outside? ..." my dad and i were laughing and chatting. Then my mom says "what do you remember with me" ...my heart sank and i tried to think of something and couldnt. My dad said "remeber hershey park with all of us and mom got soaked.." and she smiled and went upstairs. My moms not the type that went up to cry she was more mad that we brought it up.
But as my tutor said "What you dont like that your parents do,dont follow, but what you like in them pass on." is very true.
i made a list of what i dont want to be or have blake grow up with as a parent.
Donts and dos of mom
i dont want a john and put my husband through what my dad is going through
i dont want to be addicted to ANYTHING
i dont want to hate my husband
i dont want to have my job come first before my kids
i dont want to hate myself
i dont want to make my children independent and not be in their lives
i dont wnt to brbe my kids with money
I do want to be powerful like my mom
i do want to have the ability to talk to anyone
i do want the dedication for my job
Dos and donts of dad
I dont want to be shy
I dont want to feel down about myself
I do want to be involved with my kids
I do want my kids to respect me
I do want to make memories
I do want to have movie nights with my kids
I do want to help my kids as much as i can
I do want to mkae them understand the value of a dollar
thats it:) i just wanted to write about my feelings