1:43am:
i don't want to feel anymore ( Read more... )

ok. so. over tuna salad [ i made it! and it was good] with my dad. i decided that if i had a "heaven" [anyone who read lovely bones knows what i'm talking about. if not READ IT!] right now it would be/have exactly this:
tuna salad, macoroni and cheese, nature valley bars. there would be a tree with grass and sun. there would be sand and water [like ( Read more... )

So yeah yesterday i got my hair did. i got bangs again. eventually i'll post a picture of it for those of you who won't be seeing me anytime soon. i'm dying my hair brown in like 30 min. i got my nails did too. "real red" for all of them. i also got my glasses fixed so they aren't crooked. and no my face is not cock-eyed/crooked. Foley asked me why ( Read more... )

i feel like shit. i feel like a bitch. i feel dumb. i feel regret. i feel change. i'm going to change

Group was shitty. someone thought i told people waht they said. cause it got around school. we talked about death. fuck that.

first of all i didn't "run-off" with any dirty mexican!!! we're just friends you lameo! hwo can i run off with anyone when im still i love with you. im sorry about the poem it's just how i felt. it was suposed ot me symbolic not literal. i was talking abotu killing the feelings i have for you not YOU. i though by now you would understand my poetry ( Read more... )

so robert finally got in touch with me since he last called. it hurts so bad to hear him say he doesn't love me the same... so fast. i guess it wasn't meant to be. fairytales never do come true. he was too good to be true. i just wished i would've known sooner that he was going to break my heart. i know he's happier out there it just kills to think ( Read more... )

So santa barbara was real fun! we went to a beach and shopped on state street. WE saw the bourne supremacy and i saw napoleon dynamite for the 3rd time :D then we went to the santa barbara zoo and that night my uncle homer and his friend suzzana took me and tess to an incubus concert. it was so fun! they played a lot of their new shit that i hadn't ( Read more... )

--------ST0P [hammer time ( Read more... )

I leave for santa barbara in like 40 min. I'm going up there to visit my uncle Homer!! I love him. he is the bomb diggity. He gets me... he just doesn't know all.. I don't think I'm going to be seeing Mike O anymore. Ever since Robert called me the other day i've been in this emotional funk shit and i haven't been able to get out. I'm still in love ( Read more... )