He drowns in his dreams ( Read more... )

cause i wanted to go to sleep. i still love val and want to hug her all the time eventhough she might have done drew. "penis aint got no face!" i think i might still do matt cause its fun and rita agrees i give head like a porn star cause matt grabbed her leg. mark thinks im only worth 74cents, kim says thats too expensive~i dont think she was ( Read more... )

i want to die more than anything right now... but i have a fear i wont be successful. i guess we'll just have to see...

there is nothing left for me here... yet i can't seem to leave... WHY?

Remember one important thing...

Down the road not accross the street. Can't cut a vein in your wrist if you just go accross it.. you need to do the whole damn thing..

So I sit here at the library... im supposed to be fling for unemployment but somehow made my way to Lj. I think its because its like a drug for me... I can get lost for hours on this thing. Well I'm still alive people... not clean, not happy unless I'm with others, jobless, penniless (literaly), and soon to be homeless.... but I do have faith that ( Read more... )

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yeah so a lot has changed since i updated last! i no longer have a job at meijer BUT i am gunna get one like whoa! cause nicole has LOTS of bills that i cant afford! oh and i have a BOYFRIEND~ HES THE BEST I REALLY like him. his name is Andrew aka drew. hes goiing through a lot of shit that i cant really help him with because hes not very open with ( Read more... )

lmfao! well imm not as depressed as i was when i last updating, but i am depressed. i ahte when i dont take my meds, im fucking pycho! but i think ill be okay! i dont know about the whole work issues right now but i guess ill see! my schedule there is back to normal, but who knows! i CANT get any more complaints or im screwed! so i will be the best ( Read more... )

so i think i hate being "emo" cause im depressed and most of the music that i listen to is depressing and its pissing me off. i miss matt.... not the relationship i think just him i dont fucking know i just wish life was a lil more fucking easier!!! godddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd i cant stand this any more! im gunna go fucking watch my friend get ( Read more... )

im alive and clean and not fuckign amoundeuz again! i like jim thouhg so i dont kno wwhat to think!