YeHae: Wrap
Title: Wrap
Starring: Yesung, Donghae (YeHae)
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance, Angst (?)
Warnings: Yaoi (boyxboy romance)
Words: 2,479
A/N: Part of 100 Super Junior Fics Challenge - 075. Wrap, Yesung/Donghae
It all started in Authum, Yesung's favourite season. He loved the coloured leaves and didn't mind wrapping his coat a bit tighter around his body. He preferred the slightly chill weather, he could always get warmer by crawling in his bed. A bed he didn't get to sleep in a much as he wanted to. Even now they were still as busy as ever, schedules keeping them up till 4 am more often than they wanted. Of course they had to get up early as well and though most complained about this, Yesung didn't mind, because early in the morning the mail would arrive.
"Everyone gather around!", Leeteuk sighed and scratched the itch of his nose as he waited for everyone the pile in the living area. He raised the small pile of letters in his hand and started to hand them out.
Yesung was already preparing to force a smile on his face, he never got mail unless it was from his parents. Then the last letter was thrown his way, Leeteuk gave him a curious look. Soon the rest turned to him as well.
"Yesung got a letter?", Heechul asked and looked impressed, urging the other to open it and read it out loud.
"I'm not going to read it out loud!", Yesung replied and stood, quickly going to the bathroom and locking the door as he fumbled with the envelope. He opened it and took out the single piece of paper. Before reading the male inspected the envelope, but there was no sender address.
Dear Yesung-oppa
I'm a bit nervous writing to you like this and I hope you will read my letter, that would make me very happy. I want you to know I love Yesung-oppa's voice! The range is so big and I love oppa's husky voice. Would it be too weird if I confess it makes me tremble? It does, I could listen to oppa's voice
for hours and be in paradise. Many don't recognize this, but that's okay oppa, don't be sad. In paradise there should only be Yesung-oppa and me <3 <3 <3
Yesung-oppa, fighting!
- ELFy
Yesung stared and though he had to blush, a wide grin spread on his face as he folded the piece of paper and stuck it in his pocket. He held the envelope and stood from the toilet, opening the bathroom and coming face to face with several curious members - as expected. The male clutched the envelope to his chest, tried to wiggle his way through the small crowd and in the end huffed and threw the envelope in the air.
"HAH!... Yah! It's empty!", Heechul snatched the envelope in mid air and opened it as Yesung left the scene, he had fooled them.
The whole day Yesung kept smiling, he didn't even mind when the PD of their new CF told him his part had to be cut. Yesung didn't mind, he simply nodded and patted his pocket where he kept the letter from the fan. Less is more, they often say and it was true. This one letter meant more to Yesung than the pile of letters Kyuhyu received every day. Oh, he did read them of course, but after a while the compliments are all the same, you know?
To Yesung this letter was worth a fortune. And his eyes nearly popped out of his head when the next day, he received another one. This time Heechul didn't allow him to lock himself up in the bathroom, but thanks to Siwon - who acknowledged his hyung wanted privacy - Yesung was able to grab his shoes and hide on the roof of their apartment building.
He panted slightly as he sat down and leaned back against the door, opening the envelope and taking out the letter.
Dear Yesung-oppa
How was your day yesterday? I heard Super Junior recorded a new CF, I will surely watch it and look out for you! Ah, I will be sad if you wouldn't be in it. I don't understand how they cut oppa out off 90% from TV shows because he talks too much, don't they know how to appreciate such a beautiful voice? It's okay though, Yesung-oppa, don't be angry at them. In paradise I will listen to your every word <3
Yesung-oppa, do your best!
- ELFy
It was from the same fan who had written him a letter yesterday. The name was the same as was the handwriting and again the fan mentioned some sort of paradise. As embarrassing as it was, it made Yesung's heart flutter. Knowing there was this kind and loving fan somewhere thinking about him, watching him and supporting him by even writing these letters, it felt amazing.
It wasn't until Yesung received a third letter that he began longing for the paradise his fan continued to mention. What would it have to take to find this fan and embrace her, showing her how much her letters meant to him, how it made his heartbeat accelerate and a blush spread on his cheeks. There had to be a way to trace the letter, but even as he visited the post office and asked who delivered their mail, no one knew who had sent it. It was anonymous.
"How come you're getting a letter per day all of a sudden?", Eunhyuk asked him the day after Yesung received his fourth letter. The members had given up on trying to find out who was writing their band mate - at least they weren't forcefully trying to.
"I guess I'm more popular than you guys think I am", Yesung replied arrogantly though feeling a bit embarrassed to say the letters all came from the same fan and therefore kept it a secret.
"Did you write them back?", Donghae asked before stealing some chips from the male in the middle.
Yesung shook his head and told them none of the letters came with a sender address, which was kind of strange because normally fans would love to get a reply. Eunhyuk found it a bit suspicious, Donghae kept quiet watching Yesung carefully.
The more letters Yesung received the more sexual they became. From shyly wishing she could hold his hand to using her own to touch herself while thinking about him, Yesung wasn't sure where to keep these erotic letters so the others wouldn't find them. He didn't want them to read how this loyal fan imagined kissing him and caressing his body, appreciating all his curves and of course she would make sure he would enjoy every second of it.
I can promise Yesung-oppa all this in paradise
Yesung gulped as he re-read the most recent letter, the rating had gone up to nc-17 as his eyes scanned the sentences, keywords locking in his memory. He didn't know who she was and it pained him to not be able to moan her name when he touched himself, his mind forming the images she had boldly described in her letters.
His breath got caught in his throat, gripping the new letter in his small hands Yesung felt his heart pound against his chest. She wanted to meet him.
Dear Yesung-oppa
I am waiting on the roof, will you take my hand and join me to paradise?
- your ELFy
He rushed to the door, suddenly forgetting how to tie his laces and simply grabbed his slippers in the end. There was no time to lose, she was waiting for him, she was here, he could feel she was. His hand was shaking and he couldn't stop his harsh panting as he stood in front of the door that would lead him onto the roof. The pounding of his heart came paired with nerves that made him hesitate. Should he really meet this fan? What if she was obsessive?
Yesung pulled back, he hadn't thought of that yet. Those letters, what if she was such a fangirl and she would never let go? No, she wouldn't. Her letters were kind, they might have been a bit too descriptive but there were no real signs that should have Yesung alarmed.
Once more he reached out and this time grabbed the handle, pushed it down and opened the door. Yesung stepped out onto the roof and frowned at the figure up ahead. He knew those eyes, the hair, the small smile.
"Donghae?", he asked carefully as he walked up to his dongsaeng with a confused look.
Donghae said nothing and held out a letter when Yesung was within arm reach. The older one took it carefully, glancing back and forth between his friend and the letter, was it another one of her letters? Had she been too nervous and scared that she had asked Donghae to give him this to apologize? But, how did she know Donghae?
"Read it", Donghae said when he saw Yesung staring intensely.
Dear Yesung-hyung
Are you willing to embrace me? Do you long for me as much as I long for you?
Will you take my hand and join me to paradise?
-ELFy Donghae
"Is this a joke?", the first words spilling from Yesung's mouth were to be expected.
Donghae fumbled with his hands and shook his head, afraid to look his hyung in the eye. This was the moment he had to come clean, he had to tell Yesung how he had written those letters, pretending to be a female fan afraid that his gender would be the major reason Yesung would turn him down. And the times he went to the post office disguised so it would seem someone had truly sent the letters, to Donghae this was not a joke.
"Hyung, I real-"
"Why?", Yesung cut him off and lowered his arm, the letter still in his hand with tears in his eyes. Why had Donghae done all this? Why had Yesung only now recognized the male's handwriting? There was no doubt Donghae had been the sender of those letters, but why? His dongsaeng wouldn't hurt him, right?
"You're disappointed", the younger one whispered, forcing a smile on his face while nodding slightly. Of course he was, there was no girl, there was only Donghae.
"I'm not a girl", Donghae shortly laughed at himself and turned away slightly, "I can't call you Yesung-oppa, I can't seduce you with female curves", he added and placed his hands on his chest where breasts would have been if he were a girl.
"However.. I can love you", he whispered and looked Yesung's way with a saddened look.
The moment their eyes locked Yesung had to look away. He couldn't look at Donghae and most importantly he didn't want to show the other how right he was. Yesung was disappointed, the tears in his eyes were proof of how much this hurt him. Even though he believed his dongsaeng, that this was not a joke, but this was not the way to confess your love, not like this.
Yesung closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths, the images of the girl performing all that was written in the letters could no longer form in his mind. The words Donghae had written had wrapped Yesung around his finger, it had once made his body yearn, but now he wasn't so certain anymore. He tried to picture Donghae, his hands caressing his face and pulling him closer for a kiss, but it frightened him. His eyes snapped open, he couldn't do this.
"Yesung-hyung, please!", Donghae held out his hand, big tears rolling down his eyes as he realized he was reaching out for a man that would never again hold his hand.
He watched how Yesung shook his head and walked away with the letter clutched tightly in his hand. It took hours before Kangin found him, still on the roof with his eyes red and puffy, but he wouldn't tell what had happened, not even when the stronger one brought him back to the dorm and the other worried members flocked over him, asking questions that made Donghae cry all over again. He hid his face in Leeteuk's chest and knew Yesung was watching him.
Everyone had been worried. They tried soothing their beloved band mate, rubbing his back and muttering soothing words though no one knew the cause of the break down. All eyes were on the sobbing man and so Yesung could retreat to his own room where he revealed the letters Donghae had written. Letters, words, sentences, all from the heart and sincere, Yesung knew this. They no longer stirred his heart, it only made the aching worse, yet when he picked them up and prepared to rip them, he couldn't. He couldn't rip Donghae's heart.
Days of awkward meetings in the hallway, awkwardly sitting side by side during interviews and photoshoots, it was torture for both. They hadn't spoken about what had happened, hadn't said much to each other at all. Donghae hang out with Eunhyuk, Siwon and Shindong while Yesung continued plaguing random members by creeping up on them and touching their philtrums. To them nothing had happened and Donghae's excuse about remembering how his father used to spend time with him had been enough to cover the tears he had shed.
Though here they were, forced to stand side by side again during an interview neither one of them would speak in. Yesung didn't look right, Donghae didn't look left, but when a small hand reached over to touch his philtrum, the gasp leaving his mouth and the shocked expression on his face was countered by a kind smile. The older one wrapped an arm around Donghae's neck before Leeteuk announced the same old words. Everyone thrust their hand forward and voiced their unity, Donghae lowered his head afterwards and carefully gripped Yesung's jacket.
"I'm sorry, I do care for you", Yesung whispered once members started to get up and leave.
Donghae nodded, not getting his hopes up but smiling nonetheless. He hadn't lost his hyung, that was most important. They shared a look and were then separated once more. Yesung felt good, nodding to himself when repeating the scene of moments ago and concluding his careful planning had worked. Donghae pushed a playful Eunhyuk away and announced he was going to take a leak though when he sat down in a vacant toilet stall, he could only cry.
Starring: Yesung, Donghae (YeHae)
Rating: PG
Genre: Romance, Angst (?)
Warnings: Yaoi (boyxboy romance)
Words: 2,479
A/N: Part of 100 Super Junior Fics Challenge - 075. Wrap, Yesung/Donghae
It all started in Authum, Yesung's favourite season. He loved the coloured leaves and didn't mind wrapping his coat a bit tighter around his body. He preferred the slightly chill weather, he could always get warmer by crawling in his bed. A bed he didn't get to sleep in a much as he wanted to. Even now they were still as busy as ever, schedules keeping them up till 4 am more often than they wanted. Of course they had to get up early as well and though most complained about this, Yesung didn't mind, because early in the morning the mail would arrive.
"Everyone gather around!", Leeteuk sighed and scratched the itch of his nose as he waited for everyone the pile in the living area. He raised the small pile of letters in his hand and started to hand them out.
Yesung was already preparing to force a smile on his face, he never got mail unless it was from his parents. Then the last letter was thrown his way, Leeteuk gave him a curious look. Soon the rest turned to him as well.
"Yesung got a letter?", Heechul asked and looked impressed, urging the other to open it and read it out loud.
"I'm not going to read it out loud!", Yesung replied and stood, quickly going to the bathroom and locking the door as he fumbled with the envelope. He opened it and took out the single piece of paper. Before reading the male inspected the envelope, but there was no sender address.
Dear Yesung-oppa
I'm a bit nervous writing to you like this and I hope you will read my letter, that would make me very happy. I want you to know I love Yesung-oppa's voice! The range is so big and I love oppa's husky voice. Would it be too weird if I confess it makes me tremble? It does, I could listen to oppa's voice
for hours and be in paradise. Many don't recognize this, but that's okay oppa, don't be sad. In paradise there should only be Yesung-oppa and me <3 <3 <3
Yesung-oppa, fighting!
- ELFy
Yesung stared and though he had to blush, a wide grin spread on his face as he folded the piece of paper and stuck it in his pocket. He held the envelope and stood from the toilet, opening the bathroom and coming face to face with several curious members - as expected. The male clutched the envelope to his chest, tried to wiggle his way through the small crowd and in the end huffed and threw the envelope in the air.
"HAH!... Yah! It's empty!", Heechul snatched the envelope in mid air and opened it as Yesung left the scene, he had fooled them.
The whole day Yesung kept smiling, he didn't even mind when the PD of their new CF told him his part had to be cut. Yesung didn't mind, he simply nodded and patted his pocket where he kept the letter from the fan. Less is more, they often say and it was true. This one letter meant more to Yesung than the pile of letters Kyuhyu received every day. Oh, he did read them of course, but after a while the compliments are all the same, you know?
To Yesung this letter was worth a fortune. And his eyes nearly popped out of his head when the next day, he received another one. This time Heechul didn't allow him to lock himself up in the bathroom, but thanks to Siwon - who acknowledged his hyung wanted privacy - Yesung was able to grab his shoes and hide on the roof of their apartment building.
He panted slightly as he sat down and leaned back against the door, opening the envelope and taking out the letter.
Dear Yesung-oppa
How was your day yesterday? I heard Super Junior recorded a new CF, I will surely watch it and look out for you! Ah, I will be sad if you wouldn't be in it. I don't understand how they cut oppa out off 90% from TV shows because he talks too much, don't they know how to appreciate such a beautiful voice? It's okay though, Yesung-oppa, don't be angry at them. In paradise I will listen to your every word <3
Yesung-oppa, do your best!
- ELFy
It was from the same fan who had written him a letter yesterday. The name was the same as was the handwriting and again the fan mentioned some sort of paradise. As embarrassing as it was, it made Yesung's heart flutter. Knowing there was this kind and loving fan somewhere thinking about him, watching him and supporting him by even writing these letters, it felt amazing.
It wasn't until Yesung received a third letter that he began longing for the paradise his fan continued to mention. What would it have to take to find this fan and embrace her, showing her how much her letters meant to him, how it made his heartbeat accelerate and a blush spread on his cheeks. There had to be a way to trace the letter, but even as he visited the post office and asked who delivered their mail, no one knew who had sent it. It was anonymous.
"How come you're getting a letter per day all of a sudden?", Eunhyuk asked him the day after Yesung received his fourth letter. The members had given up on trying to find out who was writing their band mate - at least they weren't forcefully trying to.
"I guess I'm more popular than you guys think I am", Yesung replied arrogantly though feeling a bit embarrassed to say the letters all came from the same fan and therefore kept it a secret.
"Did you write them back?", Donghae asked before stealing some chips from the male in the middle.
Yesung shook his head and told them none of the letters came with a sender address, which was kind of strange because normally fans would love to get a reply. Eunhyuk found it a bit suspicious, Donghae kept quiet watching Yesung carefully.
The more letters Yesung received the more sexual they became. From shyly wishing she could hold his hand to using her own to touch herself while thinking about him, Yesung wasn't sure where to keep these erotic letters so the others wouldn't find them. He didn't want them to read how this loyal fan imagined kissing him and caressing his body, appreciating all his curves and of course she would make sure he would enjoy every second of it.
I can promise Yesung-oppa all this in paradise
Yesung gulped as he re-read the most recent letter, the rating had gone up to nc-17 as his eyes scanned the sentences, keywords locking in his memory. He didn't know who she was and it pained him to not be able to moan her name when he touched himself, his mind forming the images she had boldly described in her letters.
His breath got caught in his throat, gripping the new letter in his small hands Yesung felt his heart pound against his chest. She wanted to meet him.
Dear Yesung-oppa
I am waiting on the roof, will you take my hand and join me to paradise?
- your ELFy
He rushed to the door, suddenly forgetting how to tie his laces and simply grabbed his slippers in the end. There was no time to lose, she was waiting for him, she was here, he could feel she was. His hand was shaking and he couldn't stop his harsh panting as he stood in front of the door that would lead him onto the roof. The pounding of his heart came paired with nerves that made him hesitate. Should he really meet this fan? What if she was obsessive?
Yesung pulled back, he hadn't thought of that yet. Those letters, what if she was such a fangirl and she would never let go? No, she wouldn't. Her letters were kind, they might have been a bit too descriptive but there were no real signs that should have Yesung alarmed.
Once more he reached out and this time grabbed the handle, pushed it down and opened the door. Yesung stepped out onto the roof and frowned at the figure up ahead. He knew those eyes, the hair, the small smile.
"Donghae?", he asked carefully as he walked up to his dongsaeng with a confused look.
Donghae said nothing and held out a letter when Yesung was within arm reach. The older one took it carefully, glancing back and forth between his friend and the letter, was it another one of her letters? Had she been too nervous and scared that she had asked Donghae to give him this to apologize? But, how did she know Donghae?
"Read it", Donghae said when he saw Yesung staring intensely.
Dear Yesung-hyung
Are you willing to embrace me? Do you long for me as much as I long for you?
Will you take my hand and join me to paradise?
-ELFy Donghae
"Is this a joke?", the first words spilling from Yesung's mouth were to be expected.
Donghae fumbled with his hands and shook his head, afraid to look his hyung in the eye. This was the moment he had to come clean, he had to tell Yesung how he had written those letters, pretending to be a female fan afraid that his gender would be the major reason Yesung would turn him down. And the times he went to the post office disguised so it would seem someone had truly sent the letters, to Donghae this was not a joke.
"Hyung, I real-"
"Why?", Yesung cut him off and lowered his arm, the letter still in his hand with tears in his eyes. Why had Donghae done all this? Why had Yesung only now recognized the male's handwriting? There was no doubt Donghae had been the sender of those letters, but why? His dongsaeng wouldn't hurt him, right?
"You're disappointed", the younger one whispered, forcing a smile on his face while nodding slightly. Of course he was, there was no girl, there was only Donghae.
"I'm not a girl", Donghae shortly laughed at himself and turned away slightly, "I can't call you Yesung-oppa, I can't seduce you with female curves", he added and placed his hands on his chest where breasts would have been if he were a girl.
"However.. I can love you", he whispered and looked Yesung's way with a saddened look.
The moment their eyes locked Yesung had to look away. He couldn't look at Donghae and most importantly he didn't want to show the other how right he was. Yesung was disappointed, the tears in his eyes were proof of how much this hurt him. Even though he believed his dongsaeng, that this was not a joke, but this was not the way to confess your love, not like this.
Yesung closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths, the images of the girl performing all that was written in the letters could no longer form in his mind. The words Donghae had written had wrapped Yesung around his finger, it had once made his body yearn, but now he wasn't so certain anymore. He tried to picture Donghae, his hands caressing his face and pulling him closer for a kiss, but it frightened him. His eyes snapped open, he couldn't do this.
"Yesung-hyung, please!", Donghae held out his hand, big tears rolling down his eyes as he realized he was reaching out for a man that would never again hold his hand.
He watched how Yesung shook his head and walked away with the letter clutched tightly in his hand. It took hours before Kangin found him, still on the roof with his eyes red and puffy, but he wouldn't tell what had happened, not even when the stronger one brought him back to the dorm and the other worried members flocked over him, asking questions that made Donghae cry all over again. He hid his face in Leeteuk's chest and knew Yesung was watching him.
Everyone had been worried. They tried soothing their beloved band mate, rubbing his back and muttering soothing words though no one knew the cause of the break down. All eyes were on the sobbing man and so Yesung could retreat to his own room where he revealed the letters Donghae had written. Letters, words, sentences, all from the heart and sincere, Yesung knew this. They no longer stirred his heart, it only made the aching worse, yet when he picked them up and prepared to rip them, he couldn't. He couldn't rip Donghae's heart.
Days of awkward meetings in the hallway, awkwardly sitting side by side during interviews and photoshoots, it was torture for both. They hadn't spoken about what had happened, hadn't said much to each other at all. Donghae hang out with Eunhyuk, Siwon and Shindong while Yesung continued plaguing random members by creeping up on them and touching their philtrums. To them nothing had happened and Donghae's excuse about remembering how his father used to spend time with him had been enough to cover the tears he had shed.
Though here they were, forced to stand side by side again during an interview neither one of them would speak in. Yesung didn't look right, Donghae didn't look left, but when a small hand reached over to touch his philtrum, the gasp leaving his mouth and the shocked expression on his face was countered by a kind smile. The older one wrapped an arm around Donghae's neck before Leeteuk announced the same old words. Everyone thrust their hand forward and voiced their unity, Donghae lowered his head afterwards and carefully gripped Yesung's jacket.
"I'm sorry, I do care for you", Yesung whispered once members started to get up and leave.
Donghae nodded, not getting his hopes up but smiling nonetheless. He hadn't lost his hyung, that was most important. They shared a look and were then separated once more. Yesung felt good, nodding to himself when repeating the scene of moments ago and concluding his careful planning had worked. Donghae pushed a playful Eunhyuk away and announced he was going to take a leak though when he sat down in a vacant toilet stall, he could only cry.