BLAH!!

[xlovealotbearx]

Ok, a long over due update. Things have been up and down lately with a lot more downs than ups. It just like everything is getting to me. Its just every little thing gets me down. I used to get like this all the time before I got pregnant and it would lead to cutting, pill popping and thoughts of suicide. But now that I have Haili those barely

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[devilishly_cute]

aww sweetie, i know how you feel, i've been there. but someone once gave me some good advice, and now i'm going to give it to you. remember honey, you have a little girl that thinks you are the world and i know she is your world... and she needs you. think of it this way, everything you do in your life is for that little girl. You are doing it all to give her a better life. And honey when you look at her and see that smile and the things that she does makes it all worth it. and just remember that, if nothing else your daughter loves you, but sweetie if you need to talk i'm here..

[xlovealotbearx]

Thanks hun. I'm almost in tears sitting here reading that. I know that everything I do is for her, but sometimes it feels like its not enough. I feel like everything I do is still never going to be enough and when she grows up she's going to be disappointed in me.

[devilishly_cute]

sweetie, she will never be dissapointed in you. she loves you with all that she knows... and it will always be that way. unless u are laying in bed doing absolutely nothing popping pills like my mom.. she will love you no matter what.. and she will understand that everything you have given her was out of love, and she will also understand that it's hard being a single mother. and it was a rough life but you did all that you could for her. So smile sunshine everything will be fine

[luvforever]

never- not the little girl who knows already that your her mommy and her "daddy"...

Haili's smart, she loves you more than anyone else in the world. she's always going to be "i mommie's babygirl"...

You have a beautiful baby girl who adores you and who will never be disappointed in you. You're her world. She'd never want it any other way...