i've defnitly been out in a sad mood. i was talking to my friend/crush and all and i get mixed messages from him. it's tearing me up inside cause i don't know how to feel about him anymore. i don't even know how to explain how i feel right now. i don't even know how i feel. it feels like he takes every question i ask the wrong way and wants to put ( Read more... )

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if only you knew how much you made me feel inside
you'd realize that we are meant to be

this week is going by fast!! yay!! i had an interesting halloween. this year was definitly my last for trick or treating. school's been going ok, i just can't wait to get out of NJ!!! one more day left till i leave for florida!! i'll be gone for 8 days. hot guys for a whole week!!!!! yay!!! i'll miss everyone though, but hey, no school haha ( Read more... )

last night i went to a haunted hayride/car maze with jessie and kim. i had fun. their were some hot guys there haha. when we were in line they tried to get their little sister to come up and say hi to us. we shoulda said hi to them though =/. their were some cute guys during the hayride. well.. when they'd take their masks off haha. we got to this ( Read more... )

deathtonekisses: wheres my money hoe ( Read more... )

today i went to my cousin's for my uncle's birthday today. it was OK. sometimes i don't feel like i fit in my family. oh well. i was playing dress up with my cousin's? i havent done that since i was 11. it wasn't to bad haha, i had some fun. we had cake which was all watery, it was really gross. then maria asked if i wanted to go trick or treating ( Read more... )

ahhhhh i'm gonna try out for made!! but i'm not sure what i'm going to ask them to help me with cause i wanna do it for acting, but i don't know how to persue that with them. any ideas? if you do let me know ( Read more... )

it takes a lot to realize how incredibly amazing your friends are and how much you take them for granite (sp?). i feel soooo much better now cause of all of my friends help for the passed week of the stuff that has gone on. i love you all!!!! haha ( Read more... )

today i stayed home cause my stomach hurt badly. went to the doctors and he said all my symptoms were of stress. so when i got home i just relaxed all day. then when i had forgotten about everything, someone called telling me about yesterday and i hung up cause i didn't wanna hear it. then i started crying again cause of everything thats going on. ( Read more... )