Finding You Chapter 34
Title: Finding You
Chapters: 34/?
Pairing: HyukHae, Past!Kihae
Disclaimer: I don’t own them, only the weird plot.
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Uhh….I don’t know. I hate this chapter, it was a pain to write and I don’t even think it’s that good.
Note: This is written from Donghae and Hyukjae’s point of view.
Donghae’s P.O.V.
The walk to school was oddly calm, with no tension at all. I kept glancing at Kibum just in case he felt uncomfortable, but he seemed genuinely okay. I started to wonder if I lost my ability to read Kibum’s emotions the further we walked. I was so absorbed in my thoughts that I fell behind; eventually I stopped walking all together.
“Hae?” Hyukjae called me pulling me from my thoughts. I looked up at him with a puzzled look on my face, and that’s when I realized I wasn’t walking. I was about to say sorry when I felt the sadness inside of Kibum making me look over to him.
He looked me deep in the eyes “don’t do this” he was silently saying
“Do what?” I asked Kibum. I could feel the other three looking at us intently.
“You know what you’re doing” his eyes said “Don’t get depressed again” his eyes silently begged.
“I won’t” I said “That’s not what I was doing” I tried to defend myself against Kibum’s intense stare, the fact that the others were around watching the seemingly one-sided conversation didn’t help.
“You can’t lie to me” he silently scolded “why do you even try?”
“I…it’s just…” I started to say but I didn’t want to have this conversation in public, in front of Hyukjae.
“I know” he silently acknowledged “I just want you to be happy” his smile said and I almost burst into tears. “Now stop being stupid and lets go to school” he said out loud before turning around and walking off in the direction of the school.
I smiled and then laughed “Sorry” I apologized to his back. I heard him mumble something and I smiled bigger.
I looked at the three confused faces in front of me, and then I looked into Hyukjae’s eyes. I could see confusion and a tiny bit of hurt and my guilt returned. How could this work? The three of us together, someone would always be hurting. He smiled at me forcing the hurt to disappear from his eyes.
“What was that?” Yesung asked “can you read minds or something?” I looked at him and then burst into laughter.
“No” I said still giggling “When someone refuses to talk to you, you find other ways to communicate with them” I said more seriously looking at Kibum walking away.
“Too bad” Yesung said “It would have been awesome to meet someone with E.S.P.” he then grabbed Ryeowook’s hand and fallowed Kibum towards the school.
As I watched them walk away I suddenly felt cold. I looked over at Hyukjae, he was watching the three of them walk away. He had an unreadable expression on his face and I wished I could read his emotions as well as I could read Kibum’s.
I sighed and then reached for his hand; once our fingers intertwined I didn’t feel cold anymore. I smiled up at him when he turned to face me.
“It’s hard for you” I said looking into his eyes “I’m sorry”
“It’s harder for you” he said bringing his free hand up to my cheek. I leaned into the palm of his hand, closing my eyes wishing the whole world would disappear leaving only us. “I wish I could make it easier” he said stroking my cheek with his thumb.
I opened my eyes and looked into his hoping to convey complete honesty “You do, you do make it easier. If it wasn’t for you…I…you make it better” I stumbled through my words wishing he could sense how much he means to me, how much I need him.
He leaned down pressing his lips onto mine for a short, sweet kiss that only lasted a second. He pulled away as quickly as he had come and I grunted at the shortness of the kiss.
I looked up at him with the most innocent look I could muster “How long until school starts?” I asked innocently. He looked down at his watch and then answered “30 minutes”
“Do you think there’s enough time to go home and get my English homework? I forgot it” I said apologetically.
“Yeah, you only live like 5 minutes away” he answered and I smiled pulling his hand as I started to walk back to my house.
I pulled on his hand trying to get him to walk faster, needing him to walk faster. “What’s the rush Hae?” Hyukjae asked “You won’t be late, we still have time”
I ignored him and continued pulling his hand as I tried to get him to pick up his pace. All my pulling and dragging only cut the walk by one minute, but it was one minute more I could spend with Hyukjae.
I unlocked my front door and pulled Hyukjae inside my house. Once inside I shut the door and pushed Hyukjae against the wall smiling at him before pressing my lips onto his.
I kissed him with all the love I had in my heart. I kissed him with all the passion, desire, and hope I had for us. I only pulled away when air became a necessity.
“W-wha..?” he tried to ask but I cut him off by leaning in for another kiss. I licked his bottom lip and bit it lightly when he gasped at the feeling of my tongue sliding across his lip. I wanted him to take control, to dominate the kiss but it seemed he was in a state of shock.
I pulled away with a smile on my face as I saw Hyukjae leaned against the wall with his eyes closed. I leaned in and kissed him on the cheek hoping it would get him to open his eyes. It didn’t. So I played with one of the buttons on his shirt as I waited for him to come back to reality.
Hyukjae’s P.O.V.
Donghae had opened the door, slammed me against the wall and kissed me. This kiss was different from all the previous kisses we have shared. It wasn’t the first time Donghae initiated a kiss but it was the first time without any innocence behind his kiss. This kiss was pure passion and desire. This kiss was proof that Donghae had chosen me; there was no hesitation in this kiss. There was no doubt, there was only love. This kiss would go down as one of the greatest kisses I would ever experience.
When he pulled away I tried to ask why he had kissed me but I only got so far before he reattached his lips to mine, licking my bottom lip and biting it when I gasped in shock. This kiss was hot. I felt my body light on fire, I felt my brain boil, my skin heat up to an unnatural temperature. Donghae’s kiss was driving my body crazy.
When he pulled away for the second time I felt my sanity return, if only a little bit. I wanted nothing more than to pull Donghae to the floor and kiss the life out of him, to kiss him until there was no oxygen left in his lungs. But I knew I shouldn’t. I knew we had school, knew that if I did what I wanted to do there was no way either of us would make it to school. I needed to be responsible, I needed to be the adult, I was the adult. He was just a kid, not even out of high school yet.
I kept my eyes closed tight as I tried to reason with my heart. My heart was screaming at me to skip school and spend the entire day with Donghae in my arms but my head knew that I couldn’t do that. I had made him miss enough days of school; it would seem Yesung was starting to rub off on me.
When I finally felt that I could open my eyes without wanting to jump him, I did. But the sight that greeted me made me rethink my resolve. Donghae was playing with a button on my shirt, a button that was very low, right above my waist line.
“w-what are you doing?” I asked. I know it was stupid but my mind was completely blank. This kid was driving me crazy.
He tilted his head to the side and with an innocent face said “Nothing”
I was speechless. It was obviously a lie. His face might look innocent but there was a gleam in his eyes that screamed deviousness.
“Why are you looking at me like that?” he asked
“Like what?”
“Like you think I’m lying”
“You are lying”
“No I’m not”
“Yes you are”
“I’m not”
“Yes you are”
“Really I’m not”
“You’re such a liar”
“Take that back”
“No”
“Take it back right now”
“Then I’d be the liar”
“You….You….You….” he was seething but it was too cute. I just had to kiss him. I pulled him close to my body and crushed our lips together; he was hesitant at first, probably because he was mad. Eventually he allowed my tongue to slip into his mouth. Our tongues pushed against each other both fighting for dominance in the kiss.
I don’t know how long we were kissing or how we ended up on the floor, all that mattered was Donghae who was currently lying on top of me straddling my waist.
We kissed until I felt as if my lungs were going to explode unless I got air, and even then I didn’t pull away. If I was going to die, then there was no better way I wanted to go. Donghae must not have agreed because he pulled away biting my bottom lip as he sat up, pulling me up with him. He released my lip and smirked at me making my heart stop beating, this kid might be evil.
He bit his bottom lip and with an innocent (yeah innocent my ass) face asked “How long until school starts?”
It took my mind a minute to process he was even talking. My mind was too occupied on how we ended up on the floor when I had told myself this is not what we were going to do.
“w-what?” I asked. He rolled his eyes and pushed me back down onto the floor.
He kissed me and then said “I said” kiss “when” kiss “does” kiss “school” kiss “start?” kiss. Did he ask me something? Seriously this kid was speaking a different language, or I was slowly losing my ability to understand the simplest of things.
“w-what?” I asked when he pulled away. He grunted in frustration and grabbed my wrist to look at my watch.
“7 minutes” he said with a smirk
“7 minutes till wha…mmmm” I tried to ask but got cut off by his lips crushing back onto mine. He forced his tongue into my mouth and I lost all thoughts. I’m not even sure I remember my name.
We kissed Hungrily until Donghae pulled away “Times up” he said getting off my lap.
“W-what?” I asked as I saw him picking up his back pack and reaching a hand out to me.
“Hyukie get up we’re going to be late”
“Late for what?” I asked
“School stupid. Now. Get. Up.” He said pulling me onto my feet.
“School?” I asked as he dragged me out of the house.
As we were running towards the school it all started to come back to me. When we reached the school he had 3 minutes before he had to get to class so he turned to me and kissed me goodbye.
“Wait” I called after him. He turned around and asked “What?”
“I thought you had to get your English homework” I said
“Oh” he said running his hand through his hair guiltily “I lied”
“WHAT?” I yelled
“I lied” he said smirking
“You…You…You…” I was lost for words; yes this kid might actually be evil.
“I love you too” he said kissing me on the cheek and running off towards the doors of the school. He turned around right before he was going to enter the school and yelled “remember Prom is this weekend” and with that said he entered the school leaving me on the street with the stupidest expression on my face.
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Sorry this took me so long to post, but I had a really hard time writing it. And I think I hate it. I’m not sure. What do you think, is it any good? If it’s a fail I apologize but I had to post it or I think I would go crazy, I just really wanted to get this chapter over with. So thank you for reading even though this sucks :D