Finding You Chapter 35
Title: Finding You
Chapters: 35/?
Pairing: HyukHae, Past!Kihae
Disclaimer: I don’t own them, only the weird plot.
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Prom Night
Note: This is written from Donghae’s point of view.
Donghae’s P.O.V.
Prom Night
When people talk about prom night they talk about how magical it is and how it was the best night of their teenage life. It is a night to bring you closer to the one you love, to tie you hearts together for one perfect night. It is a night when you’d meet on the dance floor, whisper ‘I love you’ into each other’s ears, drink unknowingly spiked drinks, get a little frisky and then move your night to a hotel room.
It is not a night to be lying in bed crying. It is not a night to be all dressed up and ready to be swept off you feet only for the love of your life to never show up. But that’s how my prom night was spent, alone in my room crying while listening to the falling rain outside.
***Flashback to earlier***
I had spent all week bouncing all over the place, I just couldn’t contain myself. I was so excited. Prom night was tonight and I had butterflies in my stomach. Every time I thought about this night I couldn’t help but blush. What did Hyukjae plan for tonight? Would he hold my hand all night? Would he ask me to dance? Would he kiss me on the dance floor? Would he take me home? Would he take me to a hotel room?
My mind was full of all kinds of ideas, not all were innocent, but all involved Hyukjae. I couldn’t control my happiness, tonight was going to be perfect. Nothing could go wrong, or so I thought….
**a few hours later**
“It’s raining” I pouted for the hundredth time
“We know” My mother said “What are you trying to be Weather man?” she teased and Kibum laughed.
“He’s not very good at it. All he keeps saying is ‘it’s raining’” Kibum said making my mother laugh in agreement.
“I hate the rain” I said pouting at the sky. Nothing good ever happened when it rained.
“Stop pouting you look like a fish” my mother teased making me pout more. My mother was very mean and Kibum wasn’t any better, laughing at everything she said.
“You guys are mean” I pouted at them but I felt a little better. Kibum and my mother joking around with me made me feel very happy. I was happy that Kibum wasn’t upset that I was excited about prom, in fact he was very supportive, and even though it made me feel guilty I was overall happy. The fact that he could joke around and tease me gave me happy little butterflies. It was just like the old times.
Even though I was happy I felt bad for Kibum. I wished he could find someone that took his breath away every time he saw him, like Hyukjae did to me. I just really wanted Kibum to be happy. He must have known what I was thinking because he ruffled my hair and gave me that smile that said thank you. All I could do was smile back at him and pray in my heart that he would find someone who would love him the way he deserved to be loved.
But then lightning struck and Thunder boomed startling me out of my thoughts. “I hate the rain” I said again.
“Shouldn’t you be getting ready?” Kibum asked and I nodded my head.
He and my mother stood up to leave the room when I had a thought “Kibum?” I asked and he turned around and looked at me acknowledging he had heard me.
“What are you doing tonight?” I asked timidly, not wanting to hear the answer I knew was going to come.
“I’m just going to go to the library” he said and I bit my bottom lip. I didn’t want him to have to spend his prom night all alone in an old dusty library. He noticed my change in mood and added “You know I’ve never been into the whole organized function type things”
I smiled, he really wasn’t the type to go to the prom, but it would have been amazing to see him there. I smile when I think about how on the first day on High School I begged Kibum to take me to the prom. He said that prom was only for seniors, and after much convincing and whining about it he had finally agreed. Now I was going with Hyukjae, and as happy as I was about that I still felt guilty.
He walked over to me and ruffled my hair again and when I looked into his eyes they were speaking to me “stop feeling guilty and just have fun tonight” they were saying and I smiled up at him, it was a silent promise that I would.
**an hour and a half later**
Kibum had left for the Library, and my mother had been called into work, she made me promise to take tons of pictures of Hyukjae and Myself so she could see. I was all alone. Hyukjae would be coming to pick me up in a half hour, but I just couldn’t control my excitement. Tonight was going to be perfect.
**an hour later**
I waited and waited but Hyukjae never showed up. I thought maybe he was taking an extra 30 minutes to arrive because of the rain, but in the back of my mind I knew that couldn’t be it. Hyukjae lived 5 minutes walk away from me; there was no plausible way for Hyukjae to take that long by car.
I tried to call him, in fact I called him like 30 times but he never answered. All I kept getting was his voice mail
“Hey you reached Hyukjae, I can’t come to the phone right now because I’m doing something extremely sexy so just leave me a message and I’ll think about calling you back”
Normally I love his voice mail but at this very moment if I had to hear it one more time I was going to burst into tears. I looked up at the clock. Hyukjae was an hour late. Where could he be? Did he forget what day it was? But how could he forget? I’ve been talking about this all week long.
I picked up my phone for one last try, but before I dialed I prayed “please answer” I said before I started typing in the numbers.
RING
RING
My heart was beating fast “Please answer” I said
RING
“Please” I begged the phone
RING
“Please” I could feel the tears running down my cheeks “P-please” I said but it came out as a whisper
“Hey you reached Hyukjae, I can’t come….” I hung up my phone and lied down in my bed letting the tears burn their way down my face.
Hyukjae wasn’t coming.
“Why would he?” I asked my empty room “it’s not like I’m worth staying with” it was a harsh fact, no one ever stayed with me. Everyone always left, why would Hyukjae be any different?
***back to the present***
The lightning flashed in the sky as the thunder roared, it was like the world was taunting me, you don’t deserve to be happy it was saying.
My heart constricted in my chest as the words hit me. I didn’t deserve to be happy; I made people I love disappear. Whenever I was in love with someone they would disappear. But I thought Hyukjae was different, I thought Hyukjae would stay with me forever.
“How foolish of me” I said out bitterly. Someone like me didn’t deserve happily ever after.
“Hae?” a voice called for me
I looked up at the person standing in front of my bed. How long had he been standing their?
“Why aren’t you at the prom?” Kibum asked and my tears fell down harder.
“H-Hae? What’s wrong?” Kibum desperately asked as he pulled me into a hug.
I couldn’t answer; all I could do was cling onto Kibum harder. I needed to feel that safety he was offering, that heat.
He rubbed my back comfortingly but all it did was make me feel worse. Here I was getting comforted by someone I turned down because the person I choose left me. I was pathetic.
I gripped Kibum’s shirt harder, pulling him in as close as I could. It didn’t help. I buried my face into his neck as I clawed at his back, but it didn’t help. The pain just wouldn’t go away.
I could feel Kibum crying and that didn’t help my guilt as I started to cry harder. I should push him away and tell him I’m okay and that he doesn’t need to worry, but I just couldn’t do that. I needed him. I needed his comfort.
“It will be okay” he said, but I couldn’t believe his words. No, it wouldn’t.
“What happened?” he asked but I couldn’t speak, I couldn’t breathe. Something felt horribly wrong.
I pulled away from Kibum’s embrace and looked desperately into his eyes. I needed answers, why did I feel like this? Why did it feel like my soul was screaming out in pain?
I had so many questions that couldn’t be answered. Something was wrong, I just knew it. I knew it in my soul.
Something was wrong.
RING
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I don’t have anything to say about this chapter because I don’t want to ruin the next part. Mwahahaha evil me. I will post the next part very soon, unless I get killed XD