Beautiful Hangover Chapter 14
Title: Beautiful Hangover
Chapter: 14/?
Pairings: Hyukhae, Kyumin, Sihae, Kihae, Haesica
Rating: R
Warning: Mention of drug use, addiction, sexual situations, swearing and violence
Summary: Kyuhyun invents a drug that is so powerful it changes your life, one taste and you're hooked.
Donghae woke up first, all disheveled and sore, and practically kissing Eunhyuk.
He pulled his head away, detaching his lips from the sleeping man.
"Fuck" he mouthed "Fuck, Fuck, Fuck"
He pulled away from Eunhyuk slowly trying not to wake the older. He had to get out of there. He wasn't supposed to even see Eunhyuk, let alone get fucked by him, twice.
Donghae found his boxers in the tangled forgotten sheets lying on the floor. He quickly put them on and searched for his pants and shirt.
Somewhere between Donghae rummaging through forgotten blankets and accidently hitting his shin on the nightstand Eunhyuk had woken up.
"What are you doing?" Eunhyuk asked amused. He had been watching the younger for a few minutes now.
Donghae jumped out of shock and almost fell backwards
"Fuck, you scared the shit out of me" Donghae exclaimed holding onto his heart.
"Sorry" Eunhyuk laughed "But what are you doing?"
"I shouldn't have fallen asleep here" Donghae said resuming trying to find his discarded clothes "It's late...I shouldn't have fallen asleep"
Eunhyuk finally caught on. Donghae was only 19, he probably had a family waiting up and worrying about where the young boy could be.
"Shit, I'm so sorry. I bet your family is wondering where you are" Eunhyuk apologized
Donghae froze at the mention of his family. Eunhyuk didn't understand why and before he could ask, Donghae changed the subject.
"Found them!" he yelled but upon closer examination said "Damn it, these are yours" he threw the pants at the unsuspecting Eunhyuk who didn't have the time to dodge them and ended up with a face full of denim.
Eunhyuk slipped the pants on and stood up to help the younger in his search.
After much effort they found the pants under the bed--neither had any idea how they ended up there.
Donghae pulled up his pants and put on his shirt "I should go" he said examining his appearance in a mirror. He frowned when he noticed more than a few bite marks on his neck. He turned around to complain but smiled instead when he saw how many bite marks Eunhyuk hand on his chest, neck and shoulders.
"I think I outdid myself" he laughed causing Eunhyuk to frown
"What are you talking about?" Eunhyuk asked
"Nothing" Donghae replied with a smile "I really have to go"
Eunhyuk nodded and led Donghae out of the bedroom.
"This was...fun" Eunhyuk chose to say to break the silence.
Donghae just smiled and nodded his head.
"We should do it again sometime" Eunhyuk continued "I mean, go out...not fuck...unless you want that...Uhh...I mean we should hang out again" he struggled through his words.
Donghae raised an eyebrow but smiled "I have to go" he said and turned around to leave.
"Wait" Eunhyuk called causing Donghae to turn around "You forgot your book"
Donghae tentatively took the book from Eunhyuk and said "Thank you" before he left the apartment.
He leaned against the closed door and sighed. He let out a small laugh as he heards Eunhyuk yell "What the hell happened to my chest?" before the laugh turned into tears.
He pushed off the door and picked up his phone and dialed a familiar number.
***
Sungmin spotted Donghae leaning against an apartment building wall; he pulled the car over and waited for the younger to get in.
Donghae opened the door and Sungmin saw he had tears in his eyes.
"What happened?" he asked, Donghae had sounded distressed on the phone.
"I fucked up Min" he said after he settled himself into the seat "I really fucked up"
Sungmin nodded his head and drove them away from the building.
They sat in silence. Sungmin didn't want to force the younger to talk but he knew he would have to. Donghae hadn't called him for nothing.
He drove them to Donghae's apartment, a place Donghae rarely stayed at. It was quiet and perfect if Donghae was going to have some sort of break down.
He parked his car and climbed out, walking towards the door without even checking if Donghae was fallowing, he knew he was.
When they entered the apartment Sungmin turned on the lights as Donghae sat on the couch.
"What happened?" Sungmin asked again as he sat next to Donghae.
Donghae took a breath and then turned to look Sungmin in the eyes "I went to see Eunhyuk" he said, tears refilling his eyes.
Sungmin sighed "You know you're supposed to stay away from him" he lightly scolded. He had a feeling Donghae wasn't going to listen but he'd thought the boy would last longer than two days before giving in.
"I know" Donghae said hanging his head low
Sungmin sighed again "So what happened?" he asked. Donghae wouldn't be in tears just because he saw Eunhyuk.
"I slept with him" Donghae admitted still not looking up at Sungmin
"Okay" Sungmin said slowly, he knew there was more to it than just that.
Donghae was silent for a minute, his tears falling onto his lap.
He looked up and with teary pain filled eyes said "I let him fuck me because he bought me a book" he admitted holding up the copy of Romeo and Juliet.
Sungmin looked at the book, than back at Donghae before closing his eyes, letting out another sigh and rubbing his temples "You don't have to have sex with people because they buy you things" he said
"I..." Donghae started to say but didn't finish.
"What's going on Donghae?" Sungmin asked.
"I gave him a piece of myself Sungmin" Donghae said after a moment of silence "A piece of myself I promised I'd never let anyone take unless it was unconditional love. And I just gave it to him...I just let him take it"
Sungmin was confused but he understood. He had unconditional love but he refused to give that last piece of himself away. He refused to tell Kyuhyun about his past. He had love but he couldn't give his whole self away. Donghae gave himself away without love. He was confused but he understood.
"Do you regret it?" Sungmin asked. He couldn't think of anything better to say.
Donghae looked into Sungmin's eyes and with an honesty he wasn't used to sharing answered "No"
Sungmin smiled, forming small tears in his eyes until they fell onto his cheeks.
"Why are you crying?" Donghae asked. He was more than shocked. He had only seen Sungmin cry one time, and that was because of him. The action did not suit Sungmin. Sungmin was tough and fearless and bold. But he was also broken, they all were, even Kyuhyun.
"I'm a coward" Sungmin admitted. He wasn't used to this, to being so emotional. He hadn't cried in a long time. But somehow he couldn't stop himself now.
"T-That's n-not true" Donghae said, his tears falling harder at the sight of Sungmin's depressed face "You're the bravest person I know"
Sungmin scoffed with a smile "I'm not brave Donghae...I'm weak...I've always been weak"
Donghae shook his head "You're not weak"
"You gave your heart away to a stranger Donghae...I can't even do that for someone I know loves me unconditionally" Sungmin admitted
Donghae smiled "That doesn't make you weak Sungmin...that makes you human"
Sungmin smiled back and ruffled the younger's hair "You're too smart for your age"
"It comes from having a damaged past" Donghae stated bitterly
"Yeah" Sungmin agreed just as depressed
Silence filled the room. They were both thinking about what kind of lives they could have had if they weren't so fucked up from the things in their past. When Sungmin suddenly laughed
"How fucked up is it that I can't picture a better life than this?" he admitted bitterly "It's better than anything I've ever had"
Donghae smiled but didn't say anything. In his heart he knew how fucked up it sounded. Being a drug dealer should not be the best thing that ever happened in someone's life. But somehow it was fitting. Thinking about it now, Donghae had to admit it was getting harder and harder to remember if he ever had a better life than the one he was living now.
"Sometimes I'm afraid I'm going to forget everything" Donghae said after a damning silence "That one day I'll wake up and have no recollection of who I am or if anyone loves me"
Sungmin smiled sadly, not being able to look at Donghae. He let his tears fall down into his lap. It was all too sad, too depressing, too familiar.
"I won't let that happen" Sungmin admitted "you won't be forgotten"
Donghae cried, cried harder than he had in a long time. And Sungmin sat by his side the whole time. He didn't move or speak. He just sat silently by and cried along with Donghae.
Somewhere in the midst of a thousand tears and two broken hearts they kissed, a light pressing of lip on lip. Innocent in the way two pained hearts reach out desperately searching for any sign of love.
They pulled away, foreheads resting against each other with more tears than they started with.
"I should go" Sungmin said weakly. He knew nothing good would come out of staying.
"You should" Donghae said pulling away. He needed to be alone, even if he didn't want it. He wouldn't comfort himself like that, not with Sungmin. Not with someone he loved more than anyone else in this world. Not with someone he owed his life to.
With that Sungmin stood up and walked out of the apartment, leaving Donghae alone, truly alone.
Donghae didn't even try to stop himself from breaking down. He let it wash over him, envelop him, drown him. Until it was impossible to keep his eyes open and he fell asleep in an uncomfortable position on the couch. All alone.
A/N: First off let me apologize for this FAILED chapter. Second I am so so so sorry that I didn't reply to the comments on Chapter 13. I read them all, and i loved them all. But I was super Super busy with school. but thankfully school is over now so I will have more time to update. Oh and I also sorry for disapearing for 2 weeks but I had revision and end of level testing to do :( but at least that's over now :D
THank you so much for reading <3 and for sticking with this story even though I make you wait forever for updates <3