Finding You chapter 19
Title: Finding You
Chapters: 19/?
Pairing: EunHae
Disclaimer: I don’t own them, only the weird plot.
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Hyukjae has to make a choice.
Note: This is written from Hyukjae’s point of view.
Hyukjae’s P.O.V.
“Junsu’s back in town” Sungmin says not meeting my eyes.
“W…what?” I stutter, thinking maybe I’ve misheard him.
“Junsu” he repeats finally making eye contact “is back in town”
It takes a minute for the information to sink in, for his words to fully hit me in the heart. Junsu, my Junsu, came back?
“when?” I ask needing to know
“Monday” he says, he knew all week? But he didn’t tell me till today? Why?
“Why didn’t you tell me?” I slightly yell, feeling the tears sting my eyes.
“Because” he yells back shocking me, I hadn’t expected him to raise his voice at me “you know why”
“Why?” I yell back, feeling the anger build up in my. Why was I acting like this? I thought I was over it.
“Every time you two get together you just end up hurting each other” he yells
“That’s…” I start wanting to finish my sentence ‘not true’ but I can’t, we both know it’s a lie.
“What?” Sungmin say a little calmer “not true?” he asks but the anger is still evident in his voice “when you two get together it’s like two atoms colliding, all it causes is destruction” he finishes his voice softening with each harsh word spoken.
I want to argue, I want to defend it, but I can’t. His words hit all the right places, and I’m drowning in the truth.
“I’m sorry I didn’t mean to say that” Sungmin says. His eyes are bearing down on me and I can’t take it, so I look away.
“I know” Is all I can say
“Listen” Sungmin starts and against my better judgment I turn to look at him “I don’t know if I should be telling you this, but he wants to see you”
Before I could answer, before I could even think of an answer, my phone rings and we’re both shocked into silence.
RING
“Answer it” Sungmin says, and I fish my phone out of my pocket and check the ID
RING
“It’s Donghae” I say looking at Sungmin desperately, needing his advice “What do I do?” I ask, pleading. I’m so confused.
RING
“I can’t answer that, you have to decide. Junsu or Donghae” he says before turning to leave.
RING
And then silence.
I’m left alone, standing in the living room staring hard at my phone, hoping it help all the answers.
Somehow I made my way back to my room, and when I heard my phone BEEP signaling I had a voicemail, I threw my phone in a drawer and crawled into my bed.
I wanted Donghae. Didn’t I? I mean I’ve wanted him ever since I first saw him in my dreams, but why didn’t I want to speak to him? Why didn’t I want to see him?
Everything with Donghae felt so right, so easy. Donghae was not Junsu. Junsu was not Donghae. But they were so similar.
Yes, now that I think about it they are similar.
Donghae loves soccer, Junsu loves soccer.
Donghae is childish, Junsu is childish.
Donghae likes to kiss, Junsu liked to kiss.
Kiss, Donghae didn’t kiss like Junsu. Junsu’s kisses were all hot and wanting, passionate; Donghae’s kisses are all forceful and innocent, playful.
Maybe Donghae isn’t like Junsu after all. Maybe it won’t end the same. Maybe, maybe our love won’t be the equivalent of an atomic bomb.
Donghae is not Junsu.
“Donghae will never be Junsu” I say out loud to myself, I’m not even sure if I mean it in a good way or a bad way.
I look over at the drawer “Donghae” I say as I get out of bed and retrieve my phone “is not” and I open the phone “Junsu”
I call my voicemail, and a smile spreads across my face when Donghae’s nervous voice flood my ear “Hyukkie?...I guess you’re still asleep…um, call me when you get this. NO WAIT. Text me, yeah text me. I have to ask you something…okay bye…bye” as soon I hang up I sit back on my bed and text Donghae.
To: Donghae
From: Hyukjae
I’m awake
Sorry I missed your call
What did you want to
ask me?
I lay in bed staring up at my phone, it was taking him a while to reply, but eventually it came and I happily opened the message and had a stupid grin on my face because of the content.
To: Hyukjae
From: Donghae
Go to prom with me!
To: Donghae
From: Hyukjae
Are you asking or telling me?
To: Hyukjae
From: Donghae
Either, as long as you say
YES
I wanted to tease him a little so I waited three minutes before I answered.
To: Donghae
From: Hyukjae
YES!
The next text made me laugh
To: Hyukjae
From: Donghae
I take it back
If you’re going to take so long to
answer, then I don’t want to go
with you :P
To: Donghae
From: Hyukjae
Fine
Then I’ll just have to ask you
GO TO PROM WITH ME!
To: Hyukjae
From: Donghae
HA
What makes you think I’d go
to prom with you?
To: Donghae
From: Hyukjae
Because no one else would ask you :P
To: Hyukjae
From: Donghae
For your information
Tons of people have asked me
To: Donghae
From: Hyukjae
WHAT???????
To: Hyukjae
From: Donghae
You heard me
But I choose you
YES I WOULD LOVE TO GO
TO PROM WITH YOU :)
The words on the screen sent a guilty feeling in my stomach ‘I choose you’ did I choose him?
I want to say yes, but my mind kept going back to Junsu.
Donghae was not Junsu, and the only way I could find out if that was a good thing or a bad thing was if I went to see Junsu.
I’ve made up my mind, I need to see Junsu.
I roll out of bed and walk to Sungmin’s room and knock on the door.
“Come in” I hear him call and I take a deep breath before I open the door, Sungmin was not going to approve of what I was about to ask.
“Sungmin” I said once I had opened the door “I want to see Junsu”
“What?” he asked taken aback by my bluntness.
“I need to see Junsu, so I can figure out my feelings” I said trying to explain my reasons for needing to see him “I don’t want to hurt Donghae”
“Fine” Sungmin says “When?”
“Tonight?” I ask, I needed to know soon.
“I’ll call him and ask”
“Thank you” I say and then my phone beeps. I pull it out and see it’s a message from Donghae, and a thought pops into my head.
“Does he know about Donghae?” I ask
Sungmin looks at me “No, it wasn’t my place to tell him” he says “aren’t you going to answer that?” he says pointing to my phone.
“Yeah” I say as I turn to leave his room “tell me what Junsu say, okay?” I don’t even wait for an answer; I just leave and walk back to my room.
Once I enter my room I open my phone and read Donghae’s message
To: Hyukjae
From: Donghae
HEY
What did you do, fall asleep?
I said I’d go to prom with you
Don’t be jealous of the hundreds
of girls, and boys, who asked me
A sad smile appeared on my face. Donghae wasn’t like Junsu, but is that what I wanted?
To: Donghae
From: Hyukjae
Sorry :)
I have to go
Talk to you later
To: Hyukjae
From: Donghae
Okay
Talk to you later
I can’t wait for prom :)
It will be the best night ever
I took a deep breath in, what was I doing? Donghae was everything I’ve ever wanted. Wasn’t he?
I didn’t have much time to dwell on it because I soon heard a knock at the door, so I went over to open it. It was Sungmin.
“What did he say?” I asked when I saw a frown on his face, maybe he changed his mind, maybe he didn’t want to see me anymore.
“He said he’ll meet you at the usual spot at 6” he informed me and then turned around and right before he started to walk back to his room he spoke “I hope you know what you’re doing”
I watched as he walked away, letting his words sink in. I hope I knew what I was doing to.
Our usual place, I hate to admit this but my heart leapt when I thought about that.
In a few hours I was going to see Junsu.
My Junsu.
A/N: sorry this one is so short but i had to get this out of the way for the next chapter. oh the drama.