Finding You Chapter 20
Title: Finding You
Chapters: 20/?
Pairing: HyukHae, EunHae
Disclaimer: I don’t own them, only the weird plot.
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Hyukjae’s meeting with Junsu
Note: This is written from Hyukjae’s point of view.
Hyukjae’s P.O.V.
Six O’clock was fast approaching, and as I sit alone in my room I start to get a nervousness I can’t explain. It’s not a ‘oh my god, I get to see Junsu again’ nervousness, if anything I’d say it was a ‘oh my god what am I doing’ sort of feeling.
I can’t stand it anymore, so I get off my bed and check my reflection for the hundredth time, its 5:20 and I need t leave in 15 minutes.
As the minutes tick down I start to feel nauseous, the only way I can keep myself from puking is to pace back and forth.
I’m startled and a little pleased when I hear a knock on my door, and when I go to open it I see Sungmin standing there.
“Hey Min” I say
“Can I come in?” he asks
“Yeah oh course” I reply, stepping aside to make room for him to enter.
Once he’s inside he turns to me and asks “are you sure about this?”
It was a good question, it needed to be asked and I smile at Sungmin for caring about me so much
“No” I admit “but I have to go”
He sighs and then smiles “I know”
There is a minute of silence that fills the room, it’s not awkward, it’s more like comforting.
“You’re both great people” Sungmin starts and I look up to meet his eyes “when you’re not dating it’s like you’re the coolest people on the planet” he stops, takes a deep breath and then continues “but when you get together…it’s like neurons misfire in your brains, turning you into the worst possible versions of yourselves”
I nod my head, I’ve heard it before, and I get it I really do, there’s something there it’s hard to explain but it’s there. We’re drawn to each other by feelings stronger than ‘friendly’ but it’s like our bodies reject each other and we spin out of control until we can no longer hold on. Destroying everything on our fall back into reality, but we eventually become friends again and everything is good, until we give into the pull again and the whole twisted cycle begins again.
“It…” I start to say but I look down at my watch and I realize I have to leave “I have to go” I inform Sungmin.
“I know” Sungmin says walking up to me and starts fixing my hair and then moves to my shirt “go” he says after he’s done fixing and pointing at the door “you look perfect” I smile and turn to walk toward the door, Sungmin in tow, until I feel his hand on my shoulder “don’t forget it’s not just your heart this time” he says giving my shoulder a squeeze before he opens the door and walks out.
I know it’s not just my heart, I won’t be selfish. Donghae and Junsu deserve that.
I grab my keys and leave the apartment, a part of me wanting to run back in and crawl into bed, hiding under the covers. But I push that feeling aside and walk to my car, get in, buckle, start the engine, and drive to our old spot.
The drive doesn’t take long just 10 minutes or so. I pull into a familiar parking lot and park the car, before I cut the engine I look up at the building I hadn’t been in for a year. With a sigh I kill the engine and climb out of the car.
Why am I so nervous? We’re just two former lovers friends who haven’t seen each other in a year. It’s completely innocent.
“Yeah right” I say out loud before I open the door to the café. This place hasn’t changed I notice as I look around for Junsu.
I spot him sitting in a booth in the corner, our booth.
He looks up and our eyes meet for the first time in a year and I smile, as does he. He waves me over and the nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach increases as I make my way to him.
“Hey” I say when I reach Junsu
“Hey” he says as he makes an attempt to stand up, and we end up in a weird awkward hug/push away type dance.
“Um, have a seat” Junsu says after we break from our weird little position.
I take the seat opposite him in the booth, and after an eternity about 30 seconds or so I break the silence “this is weird” I say, not really to Junsu, not really to anyone I was just stating a fact.
I move my eyes from the very interesting wall to look at Junsu when I hear his unique laugh and I smile feeling a rush of nostalgia flood through me.
“Yeah” he says with a smile
“Look” we say at the same time
“You go first” again at the same time
“No you” again and we burst into laughter, and I’m starting to feel a little better.
“It’s been a long time” Junsu says when we’ve finished our giggle fit.
“Yeah it has, how have you been?” I ask
“Good, I’ve been good. But I have to tell you something” at this I start to panic, because he’s no longer smiling or looking at me. He’s staring at his hands on the table and I feel like making a run for it while he’s not paying attention. As soon as I’d heard him say he wanted to tell me something the only thing I wanted was Donghae. What was I doing here?
“Hyukjae” Junsu says looking back up at me, and I’m a deer caught in headlights I want to run but I’m frozen.
“Hyukjae” he says again “I have a boyfriend” and there it is all my nervousness gone, like a heavy weight has been lifted off my heart and I yell out “THANK GOD”
“Is everything okay here?” asks a skinny, and very attractive man with a deep soothing voice.
“What?” I ask the mystery man “OH I’m sorry. I was just overexcited. I apologize I’ll keep it down” I say bowing. I look up when I hear Junsu laughing “what?” I ask looking over at him.
To my shock I see that the skinny man is now seated next to Junsu, and has his arm draped around Junsu’s shoulders.
“This is my boyfriend, Yoochun” Junsu says giggling
“You could have told me earlier” I scold sitting back down into the booth with a smile on my face.
“How was I suppose to know you were going to jump out of your seat and make a scene” Junsu retorts.
“I was not making a scene” I yell
“Keep your v…” Junsu starts but gets cut off by a familiar voice
“Hyukjae?” the voice calls and I turn my head to see Donghae.
“Donghae?” I ask “what are you doing here?”
“I’m hanging out with some friends” he answers
“Friends?” I laugh and he pouts “so where is Ryeowook?” I tease him further
“For your information Ryeowook is not my only friend, everybody likes me” he scolds tying to look angry but failing because he looks too cute standing there with his arms folder, tapping his foot with a pout on his face.
I’m about to tease him about how cute he looks but get beat to the punch
“How cute” I hear two voices say, and I turn and see Junsu and Yoochun smiling at Donghae.
“See?” Donghae says pointing at the pair with a smile spreading across his face “everybody likes me”
“Ya! Don’t encourage him” I say scolding the pair.
I look back to Donghae and acknowledge his pout with a smile, the one I know he loves and I see his cheeks pinken a little. We are caught up in our own little world; I forgot Junsu and Yoochun were even there until I heard Yoochun clear his throat, making us both turn to them.
“Sorry” Donghae says “my name is Donghae, it’s nice to meet you” he says with a bow
“It’s nice to meet you too, my name is Junsu and this is Yoochun” Junsu says
“Hello it’s nice to meet” Yoochun says in English
“WOW” Donghae yells “sorry, your English is perfect” he says quieter “Way better than Hyukkie’s”
I hear Junsu laugh and I turn to glare at him
“What? You’re terrible at English” he defends his laughter “Chunnie is way better” at this Yoochun smiles and pulls Junsu in closer.
“HEY! I’m not that bad, am I?” I ask turning to Donghae with a pout on my face.
“No, you’re really good, you helped me pass my test” he says with a big smile on his face and I feel better.
“Donghae” I hear a male’s voice call “Why are you talking with old men?”
“Old men?” Junsu, Yoochun, and I say simultaneously.
“Come on, we’re leaving. This place suck, it’s only old people here” the voice calls to Donghae again
“Coming” Donghae calls towards his asshole friend
“I have to go” he says turning back to us “it was nice to meet you Junsu and Yoochun” he says bowing at them and then he turns to me “Bye Hyukkie”
“Bye Hae” I say and he turns around and I think he’s going to walk away but he turns back with a questioning look on his face
“Are you on a date?” he asks looking straight into his eyes
“NO” I yell shocked by his question
“DONGHAE” his friend yells
“Coming” Donghae says in an annoyed voice and then turns back to me and with a sweet voice very different from his tone earlier says “Good” and he smile really big and waves at me “Bye Hyuk”
“Wait” I yell at Donghae’s retreating back and after he turns around I look at him with the same questioning face “are you?”
“Am I what?” he asks teasingly, I just frown as an answer, he sighs “please, he wishes. But I already have a boyfriend, you know that” he says and then turns around and walks to his friend and they exit the café.
“Who’s that” Junsu asks in English and Yoochun bursts into laughter, it unique and infectious and I can’t help but join in.
After the laughter dies down Yoochun asks “boyfriend?”
“That obvious?” I ask with a smile
“Just a little” he answers with a smirk
We just sit there smiling at each other for a while until I ask “So how long have you two been together?”
They turn towards each other, share a smile and Junsu says “we met two weeks after I moved away, and got together a month later” he says not taking his gaze off Yoochun.
I smile for probably the hundredth time tonight “You seem happy” I say
Junsu turn towards me and smiles, differently then he smiled at Yoochun, I’ve never seen him smile like the way he smiles at Yoochun.
“We are” and then they share a glance and turn back to me “you seem happy to”
“I am” I admit “I really, really am”
We spent the rest of the night talking, and laughing, and I had to admit tonight hadn’t turned out the way I had thought.
A/N: HAHAHA do you hate Junsu now, of course you don't. who could hate Junsu? And there is no way Yoochun would ever let Junsu go with Hyukjae. YAY Yoochun :) I've been fangirling over JYJ, so i put them in here :) OH YOOSU <3