it's odd how all the people i was so close with in middle school and 9th grade are slowy drifting away from my life. and its also strange how i dont care, how ive come to find so many more negative things about them then positive. hmmm.... but i am greatful for all the new people that have come into my life and the old that have stayed by my side ( Read more... )

5 days until my fraturnal twin's (haha morgan) and my birthday!!!!

FEBRUARY 7TH!

its confirmed, he doesn't like me.... whatever, it was worth a try....i guess....

i dont really know what to do, he's kind of intimidating but i dont know why. i act so damn shy around him and i hate it because im really not a shy person, i know it may seem that way to people when they first meet me, but im not. i just dont know what to say when im around him. i get lost in his eyes. ive built up this thought in my mind that hes ( Read more... )

i need a change in my life. its so boring. i need something to actually make me want to go to school in the morning.....i need a guy.

holy shit, sydney's party was insaneeeeeeeee! it was PACKED! there were so many fights and some fool whipped out some mace and sprayed it into arinzee's eyes and then he sprayed it into the air and it went into a lot of people's eyes. and another kid had a baseball bat. and some1 hit this guy in the head with a glass beer bottle and he was bleeding ( Read more... )

mmmmmmmmmm well this winter break is fun so far :-)

I just thought that i would let everyone know, because i was reading my journal and it sounds like im depressed...im really not, i mean i do get mad, and thats when i write in my journal (otherwise theres nothing really to write about, unless its like my day, but that gets pretty boring.). i do get depressed sometimes, but as a whole im not a ( Read more... )

i can honestly say that i trust two people now (not including my family). thats such an accomplishment for me. after trusting absolutly no one for so long, its nice to know that im still able to trust. but sadly, it still sits in the back of my mind, im just waiting for them to betray me. its sad really. those two people are my only close friends, ( Read more... )

who am i? i really have no idea. what is my pupose in life? would it really make a difference if i was dead? im not saying i want to die, but just if i was dead, would anything change? i honestly dont think so. sure, some people would be sad, but they would move on. my friends... are they really even my TRUE friends, or would they turn on me in a ( Read more... )