Dont waste your time on me

[xmyfallingstarx]

For the first time, I felt real

this weekend was really great. I saw a movie with angelina on friday and saturday mike came over and we went to gigi's for dinner then went back to his house to watch the xmen movie. he's got this really cool little dvd player. Then sunday I went to the mall with lindsey and alex (not my boyfriend... a different

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such a pitty

[against_myself]

Whoever that friend is wasn't even a good friend at all. I mean, if you think about it, kissing should mean a lot to someone.

And this is how I'm going to explain it: You should only kiss someone you really feel for. And yeah, I'm contradicting myself by saying that,- because I can't even remember how many people I've kissed and almost all of it has meant nothing. Which is horrible, (well, not horrible.) But it's pretty bad.

Honestly, my first real kiss was this summer. It actually meant something because I really felt strongly for someone, and I saw fireworks. I was like, "ah!" And, it was ten times better than just finding some guy. And yeah, I kiss my friends,- because I love them.

Anyway, what I'm saying is if either of them say it was "just a kiss," they're obviously lying. If she/he did it once, they'll do it again. They knew each-other (obviously,) and it was their choice to do it. Their choice to lean in. Their choice to kiss back. Their choice to not think of how you would feel

Re: such a pitty

[xmyfallingstarx]

wow. thank you. I was having a really hard time explaining why I couldn't be friends with her because all I can think is "I hate her" when anyone brings it up. Even though I don't hate her... I just get so worked up thats all I can think of to explain how confused and angry I am. And someone finally understands. I wouldn't ever do that to her or anyone for that matter... and the fact that she did it to me seriously killed me. It's not even about him, it's just because I thought she was my best friend. Thank you for understanding. I really agree that that is the lowest thing you can do too. And I think the reason why this whole kissing thing bothers me so much is because I think a kiss means a lot too and it hurts so much that they had that together. And they obviously didn't have very much real feeling, because they would've been together by now if they did. So it was all for nothing. Anyways, this has become like a whole different entry, so I guess I'll end it here. Just... thanks for understanding. And I'm sure I'll be by your house