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Instructions: Write a paragraph for 10 people but don't include their name.
1. I'm not exactly sure how to put into words exactly what you mean to me. Because really... you have left me speechless. I'm really in love with you. I never knew there was such a thing as this until I met you. I never understood that love really was this perfect. I know that you... as a person... you are the epitome of my every desire. You are MY definition of perfect. I can be the biggest bitch in the world, and you will still tell me it's going to be okay. You have made my life complete. You weren't the missing piece to my puzzle... you are the whole puzzle. You're my reason for smiling when I feel like everything else has gone wrong. I would die for you, I would change for you, I would dance for you and cry for you, I would do anything in my power just to make you smile for a day. You are my good influence, you are my superhero... my prince, my knight in shining armor. Thank you so much for being my sunshine, for being my everything. I want to spend the rest of my life knowing what it is to be this happy. We have our disagreements, we have our downs... but more than that we agree on the most important thing... US, and we have the best "ups" I've ever seen. You have given me the best days of my life, and I have loved every minute spent with you. I cry at the thought of how much you've done for me. I know I'm a lot to handle, but please dont leave. You have become my reason to live. not just because I live for you, but because you've helped me to see all the good things in every bad thing. you have changed my life. I just want to scream about how much I love you, you've always taken care of me.You are my bestfriend. and for lack of a better word... you are amazing.
2. You know, I never understood what I did to you to make you hate me so much. I've really started to believe over the years that the old 2nd grade saying that people are mean to others just to make themselves feel better... really applies to you. I think that you're a really big loser... and one day you're going to look back, and hate who you were. I've learned... to feel sorry for you. Thank you for making me see that not everyone is as happy as they pretend to be... and they all have their own ways of showing it. your way... was being a self centered asshole. and I'm okay with that now.
3.You have been there for me through a lot. I know that so many times we've grown apart... but in the end I'm happy to know that you can always come to me and I can go to you. It feels good to know that when things are going wrong at 3 in the morning, I'm the person you're calling. I really hope that some day we can spend more time together. I love having someone away from here to talk to... I really wish that life was better for you where you are now, but I know that things will work out. People suck... and I know that your intentions are always good. I miss you... I really do. I wish you were back here, I wish I could see you more. And above all I really hope that you find happiness, because you deserve it. I love you.
4. Whoah dude. you and I are... well, you and I. and needless to say... we're trouble. I love chillin with you just because.. you're fun. you're you and you're fun. Thank you for always encouraging me to make things work with alex... thank you for understanding me about the dumb girl things. thank you for letting me live at your house... eat all your food... sit on your phone... and cry on your bed. I guess thats what friendships are supposed to be about... but I'm talking about literally living there, literally eating ALL your food... talking on the phone for hours... and crying for days. hah. You know I'll do anything for you, and I'm always just looking out for your best interest. I know at the times it may not seem like I am... but I think you've learned in the end, that when you look back... I really was just trying to help. I'm so happy that I have someone to be drug free with. haha. I'm soooooo happy that I have someone to "spike my orange juice" when I'm having a bad day and I dont want to get blamed for it. after I move, I really know that we'll stay friends... I know that things won't change between us. damn... I couldn't see it any other way. I love you !! thanks for puttin up with my shit, and I hope you know that I'll always put up with yours. We have the best of jokes and the best of times together and I hope I've taught you a thing or two about kickin some ass when its necessary.
5. I just want to say that I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you when things went downhill. I'm so sorry that when all those people were disrespecting you I wasn't there to beat their asses. I'm trying to make up for it now... I'm trying to get people off your back. you're an amazing girl and an amazing friend and I know that deep down all you want is to make people happy... and I really truely hope that you're finding a way to make yourself happy now. You deserve so much, you're so insanely sweet and fun... and I'm happy to be your getaway. You know my door is always open to you. and my phone is always on. We have been friends for... at least 8 years... and even though our distance has grown further... our friendship hasn't. and I really appreciate that. You're like a sister to me... I'd do anything for you. You've got such a good heart... and I like to think that there will be a little spot for me in it when we grow up... because I dont want to lose you ever.
5. You know, I just thought it would be cool for us to be friends. But every time I've tried to hang out with you... every time I've tried to talk to you... you've had no desire to talk to me or interest in what I had to say unless YOU had nothing better to do. Theres always some lame excuse. always. I give up. Not that we were ever like, really good friends or anything... but I really felt like a back up friend for you this past year. and that sucks. so just... forget it.
6. I know whatever I do for you is... never good enough. I know I'm never going to be able to make you believe that I really want to be friends with you, but honestly, I'm sick of trying to make you happy. I'm sick of trying to make you believe me. thats not what friendships are about. you're a great kid and I really do like talking to you... but please just stop expecting things to be different. you've got what you say you want... you just dont see it. If its not good enough, give it time. I'm not going to forget about you when I move, I'm not going to stop talking to you... I WILL visit you. I'm sorry if you feel otherwise... but you'll see.
7. I really trusted you. you know? you were like... my big brother. you were the best friend... the guy I could tell everything to. and then one day it was like you fell of the face of the planet. I missed you while you were gone... and now that you're back, I'm starting to wonder if you were ever even real. and you dont seem to care what I'm wondering. You've always played with my emotions... not intentionally... but you unknowingly always made me wonder if you really cared about me or our friendship. I'm sorry if I'm a hassle to be around or to talk to, I'm sorry if you got tired of me... but you were a big part of my life. and I really just want you to know that I think you suck for leaving. I miss you. I care about you. I want you to be happy. and I wish you wanted me to be a part of your life.
8. You said I was your best friend. you told me that you really loved hanging out with me. Yet, you never call... you never hang out with me... everyone else's name is all over everything "I'm with my best friend" and "she is my best friend" uh well, thanks for leaving me out in the cold while you busted your ass to make all your other best friends happy. Maybe you don't understand how much I hate this school, or these people... and you really were one of the only people I was thinking of staying for... and now... I think I would be really disappointed if I stayed for you. Because you have no time to be a friend now... I guess I shouldn't hope that you will during the year either right? You don't know how much I was looking forward to this friendship. ugh.
9. I hate that you always compare us. thats not what you're supposed to do. your job is to encourage me... to make me feel like I'm doing okay... because I KNOW that I am. But instead you expect me to follow in your footsteps. you think you're so great... so brilliant, so amazing. well fuck that. I dont WANT to be like you... I dont think you're anything special, you make me feel like shit. forget you and forget all the shit you've put on me. I'm never going to be good enough for you. so just leave me alone.
10. I'm sorry that you were a mistake. I'm sorry that we met. I'm sorry that we were ever anything at all. You ruined a good year of my life. You brainwashed me into thinking I was happy, into thinking that was normal, into thinking you were something good. I was wrong. I wish I could forget you and what you did. I wish I could forget all the lies you told me and everyone else and all the things you did that you knew would hurt me... but I can't. You ruined my friendships, you ruined my confidence, you ruined my trust in everyone.... and I'm not gunna fuckin let you ruin my life. so just... disappear. because really, I hate you. I dont have the balls to say it to you because I'm afraid of what you'll do... but god do I hate you.
new hair: eh- I dunno if I like it.
theres me n anthony. haha... he's so cute.
lauren... in the refridgerator
theres me being magical.
eh, I guess I'll have to give it some time before I like it. who knows.
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