has she seen that hole where you heart is ( Read more... )

sun burned
head spinning
wishing the pain would stop
but that this day with you would never end
everything was black and white
until today
[here is where it turns shit sorry]
the snow has melted
everything is bright
like i saw on tv
[so not finished, and i probally never will]

i cant hold myslef back
i want to show you everything
you should know im broken
ive never really worked correctly
i should have been marked fragil
but i was neglected
i apologize
but i want you to see this
ill drive you away
it will hurt me
but it will be better for me
and the best for you

i no longer cry when i listen to your verse
its become my future not my past
youre words no longer calm me
bring back memories of when life was mroe like air
never enough to have

im crazy
this isnt new
ive been writting crazy
im happy
but i feel like shit
but anything is better than what i was feeling before this.

sorry guys, you can delete me off your friends list.
i have another journal that is a bit more sane
www.livejournal.com/~lostinthespin

i guess youve never heard these words before ( Read more... )

We both know things like this dont last forever
even the memories get jaded
words and places so familiar
become strangers
lets take tonight and live it
bitter taste and all
we'll never have this again
even if we try
never by mistake
lets take tonight and run with it
this is our first
and our last

just shut up and fall ( Read more... )

new layout

my heart is beating so hard
im so dizzy
i might just pass out
my legs are weak
ill just lay here a while
put my head back
breathe in slowly
there is only so much air
fight back the tears not even i understand
my heart always aches
but i dont know what for
its all trial and error