well this semester pretty much is done after tommorow which im excited for but just to be prepared for next semester to be so much more hectic. I just need to do well thats the bottom line. I need to get out of here. December 19th i'm done with work i'll just go in whenever i feel like it pretty much just to pay for car insurance and england so ( Read more... )

HANSON was last night it was soo fucking cold out there i could have died but as always they NEVER fail to amaze me.. so i met there lil sister finally and she was the sweetest thing i told her about my "lucky" hanson shirt and shes like oh why is it lucky? and he i excerted the fact about some things i get from it hah but she denied me a pic ( Read more... )

i love how completly aware of the things i do and why i say and do the things i do but yet i still allow myself to do it. wow that was alot. i swear that i start petty conflict for my own amuzment at the moment like i crave a reaction and then in the end screw myself over, but it felt good for a min? and the thing is i've always done this its ( Read more... )

so here i am back to my good ol' live journal.. so how have i been lately? a good questions cus i'm never sure. i'm like a bi-polar patient and not even the kind i'm suppost to be.. i'm just overly stressed and feel like i have so much pressure on me.. most of which i know i bring upon myself. i'm just not happy and there are some rare occasions i ( Read more... )

i'm really loving this weather and why i choose to even bring this up is because it honestly makes my mood so much better. i abosloutly love it and its been storming like at the perfect time before i go to bed which i love. i thinking thinking about this keeps my mind off the fact that i hate my job and i hate coming home everynight. which i have ( Read more... )

so this must be the month for babies.. michelle had her baby september 12th after what seemed like forever and a day at the hospital antonio andreas he was 5lbs 11oz freaking tiny. ha. and then on september 20 th my aunt janet had her baby jaden christine whom was the same weight.. i pretty excited about this even though i'm sure whoever reads ( Read more... )

wow i havent writen in here in awhile.. which is fine i suppose .. i'm doing good though.. i hate my job and i really hate school this sememster. i'm waiting patientlly for next year to come. but none the less im' fine. my life still never fails to amaze me which to me means things are still normal and keeps me knowing i'm alright and still alive. ( Read more... )

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so i hear this kind of pain of loss is normal but yet i cant even comprend it . physically, emotioally seems to much at times. the way your eyes are practically swollen shut because you couldnt stop crying the way your chest and heart feels like your going to have a heart attack at any minute.. its like a roller coaster from hell one minute you can ( Read more... )

how could god be so cruel i'm starting to loose faith. this is one of thee hardest weeks i think ( Read more... )