tonight i went to the first show i've been to in years... not the first in years but the first of my own volition where i actually said ot myself hey i hsould go this iwth quoation marks around that and proper spelling... i saw books on tape and eats tapes (is that some kind of divine something or other?) and ofr sure nexwt week i am going ot go ( Read more... )

someday i will be well-respected for something i have written, acted in, directed... something... this is a guarantee or else it means nothing... and i will be able to make money at it... i know exactly what i am doing now... and i will not have to work bullshit summer jobs ( Read more... )

the insomnia of narcoleptic idealism
hate yourself for that one thing you didn't do
you're gonna be a big star (in your head)
tapdance those fingers
emotional conjuring

i have been to san diego the past two weekends... once on a whim with eric, cuz there weren't any flights to san francisco when we went to the airport, which was our original spur of the moment plan... we walked around the gaslamp... the second time i got invited by my friend from my film class, actually to camp pedleton to pick up her cousin who ( Read more... )

when it rains it pours?

i am so used to nothing that i am depressed by this (perceived) rainfall

i love being cryptic, but not very

i am a writer... i mince words...

i am a hack
coughing up hairballs of free verse

dear h.s.t ( Read more... )

san francisco was good times ( Read more... )

leaving for sf on dec. 3 sometime between 4 and 6 pm... staying at some joint called the metropolis in the middle of the city... be there all day dec. 4... leaving for home late in the afternoon, early evening dec. 5... my friend eric is coming with me and some guy he knows...

i should never mention anything about making films on here... i think there is some sort of jinx... sooo...
I AM NOT EVER GOING TO MAKE A FILM!!! EVER!!!

why do i write? i'm like a shark... if i stop swimming i'll die ( Read more... )