after everything that i have gone through this past week i have the chance to let you know im still here and i dont think i wil be going any where any time soon...im so glad to say that i am over the fact tha jon now hates me and i dont really even care any more... my mind now has no emotions...im blank...i just dont think that i will ever be happy ( Read more... )

to day was the worse day of my whole entire life....jon broke up with me...i cant eat i cant sleep i cant talk...i am just so fucking depresed and i dont think i can actually get over it this time...it actually scares me of how much i actually loved this boy...i really dont care what anyone else thinks i really like him and i think we can work this ( Read more... )

so after everything i have ever worked my ass off for...i fucking lost...sams gone and everyting else i loved dearly is gone....i was happy when i first got up here to new york but after a little while it turned shity real fast...i cant take it anymore...i was thinking of moving back really soon...like the second month of school??? i dont know but ( Read more... )

i am in new york still and i am having some ...ummm...second thoughts about staying for the end of the school year...i really dont want to leave sam...hi sam... there by herself without me....just the thought of it makes me freak out...well i cant stay on long because i am over at the next door neihbors house.... our computer shit the bucket...so i ( Read more... )

well i am in new york right now and i am sooooo happy...i couldnt stand it in florida any more....i miss sam sooooooooo much...she isnt answering her phone...cry ( Read more... )

well i just got off the phone with jodi up in new york... and she told me she just got me a tiket for new york on firday....im leaving on friday...i was right.....see bitch ass mom....i didnt lie about when i was leaving!!! ha ha ha! fuck you mother fucker!well...i dont think i am going to be up there for long because sam........she is my best ( Read more... )

well...john...thats really all i have to say but i think i will let you know why i am saying his name ( Read more... )

so...i have lied cheated been through heart break after heart break and in the end..this is where i lay...im leaving my family...leaving my  best friend which it hurts to say....im so sorry sam..i wish i could stuff you in my suitcase and bring you with me... im leaving for new york sometime next week...jodi and my uncle are happy and i soon will ( Read more... )