Comments | xnotxmex: im so depressed, about everything in my world

xnotxmex

im so depressed, about everything in my world

Mar 15, 2004 23:16

the thing i hate most of all about this is that when i look back at this part of my life i should be able to say i was having the best time of my life...instead im going to look back and remember how our hearts were breaking ( Read more... )

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xglubglubx March 15 2004, 20:57:08 UTC

If you think it will help, then I guess you should do it. I don't want to hear anything about it though. I don't want you to mention him to me at all. I'm gonna stop reading your journal. Just knowing you're with someone else is going to make me want to die. I'm just afraid you're going to end up staying with him, and never coming back to me. If you do then I guess this was all a wash anyway. I really don't know what to think anymore. I'm just so incredibly frustrated by all of this. About us...we can have a great future if you'll ever be ready to like me and only me, but frankly I don't even know if you will...but I don't want to give up on all the history, and the plans you mentioned. You with another guy...ugh. I love you. I hope you figure all of this out.

xnotxmex March 16 2004, 04:13:34 UTC

why would you stop reading my journal? to further cut yourself out of my life? fine dont read it...then i guess you are making my decision for me...as if i would mention him to you anyway, do you actually think i am that mean or just that dumb? i want a great future but i have to get past these feelings first...but im not sure that i trut you will wait for me
please wait buh a bee
i love you more then anything
im so sorry for all of this
do we still talk?

xglubglubx March 16 2004, 07:53:24 UTC

I'm not further cutting myself out of your life, you're cutting me out of your life by doing this. I just can't believe it's come to this. But if you think it's going to help, what choice do I have? I love you.

xnotxmex March 16 2004, 13:05:57 UTC

im sorry my feelings have "cut you out of my life"...if youre going to act like this, then nothing is ever gonna happen between us again
i love you too
do you want me to call you when i get home from work
and you never told me if we are still talking or not
love you