Today was a day of ups and downs that ultimately ended up in happiness :-)

So I woke up (a little later than I should have but oh well what can you do). 
Picked up Julia and went to Natalie's in Ridgewood for lunch.
Had some REALLYYYY good food :-) it was chicken, mozarella, and peppers on foccaccia bread...mm so good.
Got coffee (ALWAYS a good thing).
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I don't remember the last time I got along with my parents this well.  I don't wanna jinx it or anything but the past few days have been SO so nice.  I spent an entire car ride home with my mommy and it was pretty enjoyable for a change.  Yesterday I spent most of my day shopping with my mom and my grandma.  Then I wanted to stay over at Rob's ( Read more... )

Actually, its the sunset...and it is BEAUTIFUL...pink orange, blue, green every color you can probly think of right over the mountains....it looks like a painting :-)
Anyways, the weather was GORGEOUS today..it was still a little chilly but it was definitely the first spring-like feelings i've had in a whiiiile.  It was really sunny, the day was ( Read more... )

So I just talked to my parents, as I do every night...and my dad asked me how i was.  Like in that serious I care and I'm worried about you.  He said he knew I must be going thorugh a lot right now what with everything thats been happening, and he said that if i dont want to talk to him there are counselors and other people i can talk to here and ( Read more... )

Really now...things have a tendency of hard-core falling apart right when it seems like they might just get better. First of all, I've been in a major funk lately.  I can't concentrate on anything...nothing seems worth it.  The only time I ever feel like things might be ok really is when I'm at rehearsal.  I feel like I'm finally learning how to ( Read more... )

Today wasn't as absolutely awful as I was expected...largely impart to a much-needed snow day :-)
I spent the day in Kim and Christina's room doing absolutely nothing.  I finished knitting an entire scarf, read a little, and basically watched liek 4 straight hours of Without a Trace lol which ive discovered is actually a pretty good show.  We ( Read more... )

I've been thinking nonstop over the past few days for understandable reasons.  I have trouble sleeping and can't focus on anything in particular cuz im just sad and thinking about things all the time.  I'm so happy I was home this weekend, it was one of the hardest few days of my life but its made me realize just how lucky i am.  I struggle with my ( Read more... )

I can't believe this and I can't believe there's nothing I can do about it.  Shit like this isn't supposed to happen to people i know.  It feels like the world shouldn't keep going when something like this happens.  Apparently a kid I went to high school with (he was a senior now, pretty much brilliant accepted to an ivy league) was found dead this ( Read more... )

I really should be doing work, but I kinda decided my time would be better spent rambling about life here! :-)

Things have been going alright.  This weekend was kinda great, I wrote about the retreat friday, then saturday I got back and it was kinda sad cuz Elana (the roomie) was really sick with this bad stomach virus (more on that later...).  But ( Read more... )

Last night was my Vagina Retreat.  It was unbelievable.  I know this sounds kinda ridiculous, but i really think that this thing is changing my life a little bit.  I've never been in such an open environment when I can feel ok to just say anythign and get everything out there and just deal with it all.  Basically we had an entire night of sharing ( Read more... )