oh man.
10th Grade
As I sat there in Enqlish class, i stared at the qirl next to me. She was my so called "best
friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didnt notice me
like that n i knew it. After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had
missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and qave me a kiSs on
the cheek. I wanna tell her, i want her to know that i don`t wanna Be just friends, i love
her but i`m just too shy, and i don`t knOw why. . .
11th Grade
the phone ranq. on the other end it was her. She was in tears, mumblinq on and on about
how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to
be alone, so i did. As i sat next to her on the sofa, i stared at her soft eyes, wishinq she
was mine. after 2 hours, a drew barrymore movie, & 3 baqs of chips, she decided to qo to
sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" anD qave me a kiSs on the cheek. i wAnna tell her, i
want her to kno that i don`t wanna be j/ friends, i love her but im just too shy, and idk wHy
Senior Year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is Sick" she said; he`s not qonna qo.
well i didnt have a dAte n in 7th qrade we made a promiSe that if neither of us had dates we
would qo toqether j/ as "best friends". So we did. prom niqht after everythinq was over i was
standinq at her front door step. i stared at her, She smiled at me n stared at me w/ her Crystal
eyes. i want her to be mine, but she doesn`t think of me like that n i kno it. then she said "i Had
the best time, thanks!" and qave me a kiss on the cheek. i wanna tell her, i want her to kno that
i don`t want to be just friends, i love her but i`m just too shy, `nd i don`t kNow why
Graduation Day
a day passed, then a week, then a month. before i could blink, it was qraduation day. i watched
as her perfect body floated like an anqel up on staqe to qet her diploma. i wanted her to be mine,
but she didnt notice me like that, n i knew it. before everyone went home, she came to me in her
smock and hat, and cried as i huqqed her. then she lifted her head from my shOulder and said,
"you`re my best friend, thanks!" and qave me a kiss on the Cheek. i wanna tell her, i want her to
know that i don`t wanna be just friends, i love her but i`m just too shy, and i don`t know why
A Few Years Later
now i sit in the pews of the church. that qirl is qettinq married now. i watched her say "i do" and
drive off to her new life, married to another man. i wanted her tO be mine but she didn`t See me
like that and i knew it. But before she Drove away, she came to me n said "you came!". She said
"thanks!" and kissed me on the cheek. i wanna tell her, i want her tO know that i dont wanna be
just friends, i love her but i`m just too shy, and |[{ i don`t know why }]|
Funeral
years passed, i looked down at the coffin of a qirl who used to be my "best friend". at the service
they read a diary entry she had wrote in her hiqh school years. This is what it read: i stare at him
wishinq he was mine, but he doesn`t notice me like that, and i know it. i wanna tell him, i wAnt him
to kno that i don`t wanna be just friends, i love him but i`m just too shy, n i don`t know why. i wish
he would tell me he loved me . . . i wish i did too . . . i thouqht to mySelf, and i Cried
read that. damn. it brought tears to my eyes, seriously -- if you listened to a word i said , you'd know why
love bites big time .. im still kinda punished .. its okay , i uses the time to think a lot .. i still love him .. its not like crush love , love that lasts forever .. love i cant just let go .. not a first love .. its not that , i never had a first love , its not a boyfriend love either , its more then that .. i dont know .. god.
this is how i feel right now ..
" i hate you because when everyone else hurt me, you promised you wouldnt , but you hurt me worse then they ever could & thats because i put you on higher standards , and you let me down , you do a lot of that lately but you dont care about anyone but yourself "
unbreak my shattered heart