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Yeah, it's been a while
Well, last night I wrote a friggen longggg entry about what's been going on the past few days... what happened to it, you ask?? WELL, my computer froze. Yeah. I hate this thing. ::rolls eyes:: ANYHOO...=)
I'll summarize: Thanksgiving, sucks. Due to shitty family. Boys, suck. Due to them telling people, who they don't like, they don't like you, like that. lol. Friends, suck. They always stab you in the back. In the previous entry, I made sense of all this. But there's just no way in hell I am now. ...Okay, fine.. I'll give you something...
Thanksgiving ... I hate my family, they were pretty damn retarded, and I'm glad they're gone. Boys ... Scott. UGH. Well, apparently he "found out" I liked him, and when this annoying kid said something to him, he was like "I don't like her so don't start.." So I played it off nicely, but I really don't want to believe it. I really don't knowww... Ugh. More on this later. Friends ... fuck you over everytime. Yeah yeah, "well then they're not true friends" Well, how the fuck do you know that until they fuck you over? yeah, thanks.
I talked to my Uncle BOB=)=) He's supposed to come down.. tomorrow. He doesn't know if he can though. He didn't come for Thanksgiving=/ He's the greatest. I hope he can come.=)<3
I haven't talked to anyone today reguarding all this Scott bullshit. As far as he knows, I don't like him, and whoever told him was fucking with him.. Yeah, I'm good. He feels like the idiot now. He didn't know if he was going to believe it or not. Nick told me all this, and I'm not supposed to know. Chris told me that he said "[he didn't] like [me] so don't start that again" But anyone would say that to Chris.. cause he's annoying.. lol. But still. He said it.
I joked around a lot about it to Nick. Which may, or may not have been a good idea... And I said something like... "the love of my life doesn't like me, what will I doooo!?" and he was like "how do you know he doesn't like you??" and shit like that. Now, he could've just been saying that. He also could've had subtext. I really don't know what I'm going to do about it all though... Tomorrow I guess, I'm just going with the flow..=/ It sucks reallllyyyy bad though. Cause when this is all over, I might wind up without my friend, and without a boyfriend.
But like I said, friends always fuck you over, and boys are fucking retarded as hell too. Ugh. Whatever.
Part of me just wants to forget all of it happened and just be friends with him again... cause I talked to him all the time... and he's the greatest.. and another part of me wants to be like, "yeah, I do like you... this may be beating a dead horse and all, but how do you feel about me??" but... I can't handle that "only as a friend" bullshit..
Anyhoo, that's all I'm writing for now.. I'm debating whether or not to give up the RPG.. really haven't been that active, and I don't think I have the time for it..=/ So may get out of that later..=/ I'll miss it though.. it's friggen awesome=) lol.
Well, last night I wrote a friggen longggg entry about what's been going on the past few days... what happened to it, you ask?? WELL, my computer froze. Yeah. I hate this thing. ::rolls eyes:: ANYHOO...=)
I'll summarize: Thanksgiving, sucks. Due to shitty family. Boys, suck. Due to them telling people, who they don't like, they don't like you, like that. lol. Friends, suck. They always stab you in the back. In the previous entry, I made sense of all this. But there's just no way in hell I am now. ...Okay, fine.. I'll give you something...
Thanksgiving ... I hate my family, they were pretty damn retarded, and I'm glad they're gone. Boys ... Scott. UGH. Well, apparently he "found out" I liked him, and when this annoying kid said something to him, he was like "I don't like her so don't start.." So I played it off nicely, but I really don't want to believe it. I really don't knowww... Ugh. More on this later. Friends ... fuck you over everytime. Yeah yeah, "well then they're not true friends" Well, how the fuck do you know that until they fuck you over? yeah, thanks.
I talked to my Uncle BOB=)=) He's supposed to come down.. tomorrow. He doesn't know if he can though. He didn't come for Thanksgiving=/ He's the greatest. I hope he can come.=)<3
I haven't talked to anyone today reguarding all this Scott bullshit. As far as he knows, I don't like him, and whoever told him was fucking with him.. Yeah, I'm good. He feels like the idiot now. He didn't know if he was going to believe it or not. Nick told me all this, and I'm not supposed to know. Chris told me that he said "[he didn't] like [me] so don't start that again" But anyone would say that to Chris.. cause he's annoying.. lol. But still. He said it.
I joked around a lot about it to Nick. Which may, or may not have been a good idea... And I said something like... "the love of my life doesn't like me, what will I doooo!?" and he was like "how do you know he doesn't like you??" and shit like that. Now, he could've just been saying that. He also could've had subtext. I really don't know what I'm going to do about it all though... Tomorrow I guess, I'm just going with the flow..=/ It sucks reallllyyyy bad though. Cause when this is all over, I might wind up without my friend, and without a boyfriend.
But like I said, friends always fuck you over, and boys are fucking retarded as hell too. Ugh. Whatever.
Part of me just wants to forget all of it happened and just be friends with him again... cause I talked to him all the time... and he's the greatest.. and another part of me wants to be like, "yeah, I do like you... this may be beating a dead horse and all, but how do you feel about me??" but... I can't handle that "only as a friend" bullshit..
Anyhoo, that's all I'm writing for now.. I'm debating whether or not to give up the RPG.. really haven't been that active, and I don't think I have the time for it..=/ So may get out of that later..=/ I'll miss it though.. it's friggen awesome=) lol.