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[xobebedolliexo]

I hate this week so much and I just want it to be over right now. It's all been going downhill since monday

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[maximusair]

you're right, in a moment, everything can change. Like how i asked you to be my girlfriend and put my heart on the line and feared that you might say no and break my heart. but you didnt. so where would i be now if i hadnt asked you out? if i hadnt took the risk??? i'd be alone and sad. but i took the risk and this time everything worked out perfectly. Now i'm the happiest with you. Yeah this time i took a risk and it worked out, and all i think about is that for once it turned out right. keep trying and keep working at it because sooner or later you'll take another risk and it'll turn out for the best. You'll still remember the times you were rejected but you'll realize that they made you stronger and got you were you'll be. I KNOW one day you'll make it, and it'll all be worth it and i'll be the one in the background saying how that's me girl and i couldnt be prouder. chin up renee, just keep on trying...love me

[xobebedolliexo]

But four rejections in one year gets hard to take. But I kno I can't give up.

I'm glad you did take that chance because everything did work out perfectly and I couldn't be happier. Thank you for having confidence in me. I need it.

I need that day.

I love you,
x0x0 ReneeJoann

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[xsteph1017x]

aw ni dont worry about it next time you'll do awsome! your a great singer and a great actress..its just your nerves that you need to work on! id be way worse if i was in that situation and that whole rejection thing yeah it sucks big time! but dont worry as long as you know your good it doesnt matter what gundi says these are just high school plays maybe when you graduate and go to like nyu or something you'll have more confidence you'll really show gundi! okay well yeah and then we all (me and you and ange and jenny) all go to new york for college and get a sweet apparment and go watch all your broadway shows it will be sweet and ange will cook all the food and ill save everyone from food poisoning and jenny will decorate the apartment. it will be sweet..oh yeah and we will all have our dream guys..not those weird ones that rejected us in hs..

okay well im done dreaming
love you!

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[xoangelinaox]

oh niiiiii i know what you mean. sitting there and everyone going 'your sooo gooood' when you know, in all honesty, you just didn't do the best you could. so maybe its your nerves, or maybe its a sign. yeah thats it. its a sign. god (or whatever that is up there) didn't want you in that play. i bet something bad wil happen, like uhhh the stage will collapse, yeah that its. he wants to save you from a piteous death

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[xobebedolliexo]

Aww ange, at first when I started reading your comment I was like *woah, this looks like it'll be good" and then...
god (or whatever that is up there) didn't want you in that play. i bet something bad wil happen, like uhhh the stage will collapse, yeah that its. he wants to save you from a piteous death.

But yeah, ange..you really can relate to what I'm talking about since we're both into the performing thing and that feeling..I kno exactly what you mean and I kno I would regret it for the rest of my life if I never got to feel that ever again. It's a rush.

I'm only in honors 2 english. And I can't always write that good. It's only when I'm inspired or really emotional about something, for like essay papers on stupid things I just BS my way through it. And so the only reason that entry was good was because I had a lot of thoughts and feelings to get out and I honestly started crying when I was writing it. And by the way, you're one to talk, you write amazing poems.

x0x0 ReneeJoann

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[xoangelinaox]

hey, i got theories on every other thing thats going on with the theatrical deparment in pentucket regional high school... so i mine as well not stop now, i'm on all roll. a roll thats trying to go uphill, but still.

yeah i relate. but we have a difference, you know what your doing, i don't. it is a rush. i love that rush. it makes me... happpy....

bsing your way though things is good, i do that sometimes, and it helps kinda. uhh yeah writing amazing poems... thats not poems thats like a jumble of words that are put together in like bad order making no sense. they mean nothing. no one sees them, unless its like you, so its nothing.

don't cry nini. your happy. happy people shouldn't cry. i know you still got some emo in you, but take it out in healthy ways like slitting your stomach. (joking kiddies, don't take me seriously, i'm not one to take seriously). llooovveee youuuu
XoXoAndreaCatherine

[xsteph1017x]

i wanna post another im in a good mood! uhh yeah the new york trip will be off the chain..we will have so much fun..im gonna take a lot of picture..maybe maybe maybe (i did that cause you did it) ill have my video camera and ill FILM it..yea that would be nice..cause then i could watch it..

uh okay im gonna go.

i heart my ni

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[xobebedolliexo]

I really am excited to go to New York. Ample shopping time!!

Thank you for having faith in me.

Your video camera??

Much love
x0x0 ReneeJoann

[anonymous]

renee, you audition. every year. for every production. no matter what. that says a lot. that's absolutely huge. all i can say is, keep doing that, keep working at it. seriously. i know we're not close friends, but i hope that helped. -emma