WARNING: Long depressing entry...
I had a long weekend; however I didn’t enjoy it much.
Thursday~
I was a complete wreck! I managed to fall up the stairs…yeah I know who falls up stairs? If anyone could manage it…it would be me! I pulled something in my right shoulder and I bruised my left forearm, left shin and right knee in the process. I also woke up Jeff! However, the pain that I felt from that didn’t even compare to the emotional pain I was feeling that day. I just wanted to lay there on the cold tile, but I was on the phone with the people that were going to cremate Dustin when it happened.
I broke down multiple times throughout the day. Then I would gather myself back up and then someone would call and I would be a mess again. I cleaned out the cupboard and gathered his things and just sat and cried for hours I'm sure. I didn’t get much sleep the night before so I just felt weak and exhausted. I picked him up from the vet and took him to Harper Lawn Pet Memorials. I couldn’t bring myself to look in the box and I cried while driving, which I know is not the greatest thing to do…but I couldn’t help it. I almost got pulled over too because I was going 10 over the speed limit the cop followed me for awhile and then left me alone, which was great considering I don’t think I could handle getting a ticket!
I picked up Dustin a little after 4 p.m. and I bought a really pretty black and gold urn for him. He’s now my little genie in a bottle! :) I figured since he never wanted to leave my side I would have him buried with me when my time came.
Jeff brought home Famous Dave’s and I wasn’t all that hungry, but I ate anyways. The only food I used throughout the day was two apples to put on my eyes to reduce swelling!
Friday~
I probably should’ve gone into work, but I only slept for four hours. I went to bed at 5 a.m. and woke up around 9 a.m. when my phone rang. It was the vet to say he was sorry and that he had more bad news, which was that my other cat also has the skin infection. While the vet was calling I was watching Bodie roll on my pillow! Ick! So I had to put him down in the basement as well and clean the whole house again, which is just what I didn’t feel like doing! I didn’t go back to bed…my brain just wouldn't shut off. I stared at the urn, which now holds my dog and I realized that I still don’t believe it. I went to the vet to pick up his collar and I took it out of the bag and just held it and cried some more...his collar is now my keychain.
We ended up going to Don Pablos for dinner. I wanted to go out that way to get some things from the scrapbooking store because I want to make a memorial scrapbook for Dustin, but we never made it to the store because we went to Barnes & Nobles when we left Don Pablos. I had two glasses of wine while I was there and I picked up a bottle on our way to Brendan & Melissa’s house. Jeff wanted to go over there and I didn’t feel much like going, but I went and I had a pretty good time playing Taboo. I never played before and it’s a fun game. I finished the entire bottle of wine, which the guys had to open with a screw and a pair of pliers! We got home around 3 a.m. and I slept for 12 hours straight! I definitely needed some sleep though!
Saturday~
I woke up around 3 p.m. realizing I wasted ½ the day, but didn’t know what I would’ve done anyways. I just felt like laying there for the rest of the day, but Jeff came in and asked me if I was in a coma so I finally got myself out of bed.
Later in the evening we went to La Shish and met Jill & Will there. I pigged out on all of the good food there and then we went to pick up Andrea & Jason. All four of us met Will & Jill at Orleans. He had a few drinks there and played shuffle board. There were a lot of people from Anchor Bay there that night and I said hello to my friends Marc and Andy.
Jason & Andrea came over after signing a waiver that they could get cat fungus…not really, but I should probably develop one! We watch a documentary about a crazy guy that lives with the Grizzly’s year after year and he ended up getting eaten by one! Then I crashed for the night.
Sunday~
We cleaned the house again and Jeff went through all of his clothes and is giving away two boxes and two garbage bags full of clothes! I swear the boy has more clothing than I do!
We ordered pizza and watch the All-Star game. I also played Tetris and I beat Chris’s high score!
Thursday~
I was a complete wreck! I managed to fall up the stairs…yeah I know who falls up stairs? If anyone could manage it…it would be me! I pulled something in my right shoulder and I bruised my left forearm, left shin and right knee in the process. I also woke up Jeff! However, the pain that I felt from that didn’t even compare to the emotional pain I was feeling that day. I just wanted to lay there on the cold tile, but I was on the phone with the people that were going to cremate Dustin when it happened.
I broke down multiple times throughout the day. Then I would gather myself back up and then someone would call and I would be a mess again. I cleaned out the cupboard and gathered his things and just sat and cried for hours I'm sure. I didn’t get much sleep the night before so I just felt weak and exhausted. I picked him up from the vet and took him to Harper Lawn Pet Memorials. I couldn’t bring myself to look in the box and I cried while driving, which I know is not the greatest thing to do…but I couldn’t help it. I almost got pulled over too because I was going 10 over the speed limit the cop followed me for awhile and then left me alone, which was great considering I don’t think I could handle getting a ticket!
I picked up Dustin a little after 4 p.m. and I bought a really pretty black and gold urn for him. He’s now my little genie in a bottle! :) I figured since he never wanted to leave my side I would have him buried with me when my time came.
Jeff brought home Famous Dave’s and I wasn’t all that hungry, but I ate anyways. The only food I used throughout the day was two apples to put on my eyes to reduce swelling!
Friday~
I probably should’ve gone into work, but I only slept for four hours. I went to bed at 5 a.m. and woke up around 9 a.m. when my phone rang. It was the vet to say he was sorry and that he had more bad news, which was that my other cat also has the skin infection. While the vet was calling I was watching Bodie roll on my pillow! Ick! So I had to put him down in the basement as well and clean the whole house again, which is just what I didn’t feel like doing! I didn’t go back to bed…my brain just wouldn't shut off. I stared at the urn, which now holds my dog and I realized that I still don’t believe it. I went to the vet to pick up his collar and I took it out of the bag and just held it and cried some more...his collar is now my keychain.
We ended up going to Don Pablos for dinner. I wanted to go out that way to get some things from the scrapbooking store because I want to make a memorial scrapbook for Dustin, but we never made it to the store because we went to Barnes & Nobles when we left Don Pablos. I had two glasses of wine while I was there and I picked up a bottle on our way to Brendan & Melissa’s house. Jeff wanted to go over there and I didn’t feel much like going, but I went and I had a pretty good time playing Taboo. I never played before and it’s a fun game. I finished the entire bottle of wine, which the guys had to open with a screw and a pair of pliers! We got home around 3 a.m. and I slept for 12 hours straight! I definitely needed some sleep though!
Saturday~
I woke up around 3 p.m. realizing I wasted ½ the day, but didn’t know what I would’ve done anyways. I just felt like laying there for the rest of the day, but Jeff came in and asked me if I was in a coma so I finally got myself out of bed.
Later in the evening we went to La Shish and met Jill & Will there. I pigged out on all of the good food there and then we went to pick up Andrea & Jason. All four of us met Will & Jill at Orleans. He had a few drinks there and played shuffle board. There were a lot of people from Anchor Bay there that night and I said hello to my friends Marc and Andy.
Jason & Andrea came over after signing a waiver that they could get cat fungus…not really, but I should probably develop one! We watch a documentary about a crazy guy that lives with the Grizzly’s year after year and he ended up getting eaten by one! Then I crashed for the night.
Sunday~
We cleaned the house again and Jeff went through all of his clothes and is giving away two boxes and two garbage bags full of clothes! I swear the boy has more clothing than I do!
We ordered pizza and watch the All-Star game. I also played Tetris and I beat Chris’s high score!