sigh. Living in light and dark. It's very frustrating. The days used to be more dark then light. Alcohol helped keep me sane. Love had given up on me. These days tho. There is so much pulling me away from the dark. Ian.. Ian is a light. His eyes are bright blue lights boreing holes into my own. Come back Angel.. Come back up they say. He is amazing ( Read more... )

best three days ever ( Read more... )

conflict of the heart: yes you love him.. something pulls you two together. you go shopping for things. to the diner. he puts his head on your shoulder. you both always get the same shit.. two salads.. sometimes share the motza sticks sometimes get 2 orders.. omelets or grilled cheese. coffee. you make eachother laugh a lot. make fun of eachother. ( Read more... )

gosh. Halloween this year was fun! Saturday night we all got dressed up and went to this costume party. It was uber fun! Pat even got dressed up as spider man ( Read more... )

I'm floating right now. California was a wonderfully relaxing meditative vacation. laying in the sun and reading. Life is generally good. Mom got a job. I got new tattoos and a new renued outlook on life.


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my tummy is so full of french fries and whole foods salad bar ( Read more... )

wow. my last post was so. long ago. not that it matters 'cause brennan is the only one who reads this anyway but.. updates? sure.

within the last couple weeks..

- my x fiance [pat] for the last few months has been playing the saint.. he loves me.. wants me back super badly.. leaves presents on my stoop.. text messages like crazy.. then I find out ( Read more... )

so I went home and it was ausomeness. Nicole and Chris are my favorites. We had such an AUSOME ausome time at Coney. It was merfest or some junk so there were people dressed up like mermaids EVERYWHERE and it was fun. We layed out on the beach for a bit and then watched the parade. We are corndogs and onion rings and french fries and it was ( Read more... )

he came. he saw. he conquered. well, not quite. :grins: but I read somewhere that the only way to live is to give yourself totally to love. and this prolly isn't crazy love but it's something really ausome and nice and wonderful. matt is an ausome ausome dude. as Ralph would say. Leia love him. Ralph loved him. Tunie even got to meet him. the ( Read more... )

he gets here in 3 days. what the heck is my deal with boys who live far away? needless to say.. I get to see him in three days and I hate waiting. It's really no good. and you'd think you know.. dag.. another far away kid.. but no.. he moves here at the end of the month. so if anything were to happen [relationship? no way I'm still irritated at ( Read more... )