i just need to experience something life-affirming.

anything. please.

why do i do this to myself? i have absolutely no reason to at all, but i go back and read joes last entry in his live journal, and of course its about a mile long entry jacqui-bashing when we were together the second time. i should have just seen it there and broke up with him then...that we werent going to work, that we were drifting apart, ( Read more... )

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these past few weeks have been a rollercoaster to say the least. i have never felt so bipolar before in my life...i was on the highest high ive ever been on; and then it was ripped away from me, well, from us, without any good reason...or at least thats how it felt. but ive also never felt so, connected to the world. i may not know exactly where im ( Read more... )

im allergic to tonys apartment; very simple concept. i dont think ive ever been here a time when i didnt have a sneezing fit. this is becoming slightly ridiculous. just thought i might fill you all in. ♥

so yea i apparently haven't updated my journal in forever, so im gonna update now. not that i have a whooooole lot to say...or at least a lot that i can say in a livejournal lol ( Read more... )

yep. me and joe broke up again. like any of you didnt expect that to happen. you always hear the stupid sayings like "it feels like my heart was ripped out and put in a blender" or "someone just did the mexican hat dance on my heart" or other things of that nature. well...i really dont feel that. I feel like I just have no heart anymore. Theres ( Read more... )

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