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twinklechick313: life gets a lot different when you get older
Kel71589: yea. i always heard wen i was younger that wen u grow up u "learn more about urself. try to figure out who u really are" but i never thought that was true. i thought it was just some silly thing adults told u. that it was stupid. how can u figure out who u really are wen u've been u your whole life. but now i get it. u figure out stuff that u never knew was in u before. twinklechick313: so true
twinklechick313: and all these things come out from inside and its like you have this whole other person to you
twinklechick313: that has deeper feelings
Kel71589: right
Kel71589: and life seems different
twinklechick313: very different
twinklechick313: its so hard to explin
twinklechick313: but its different
Kel71589: because uve grasped the concept of death. and life. and love. and friends. true friends. not just goofy ones. and the love u have for ur friends. and family. and brothers. and that u only get one life on earth. and u just kinda start to realize that wen u get this age
twinklechick313: ahh soo true
twinklechick313: and realize that youre just such a small part of this big thing, and that even though you have so much drama in your life there is so much other stuff going on around you too
Kel71589: worse stuff
Kel71589: like brain tumors
Kel71589: and ur big problems seem oh so much smaller
Kel71589: and war
twinklechick313: yea
twinklechick313: and terrorism
twinklechick313: and people moving to completely different states
Kel71589: and u wonder why u worry so much about boys and grades and silly stuff. wen other ppl wuld be more than happy to have that be their biggest worry. makes me feel very selfish.
twinklechick313: i know me too, but than it never fails that you still always end up feeling sorry for yourself anf worrying about your own problems
twinklechick313: its like somthing has to remind you of how good you have it for you to be thankful
Kel71589: and thats sad
twinklechick313: very sad
went over to cat's house tonite. laid on brandon's couch with cat. listened to music. we both sang. even though we were bad. and off key. because it was too low for us. but it didnt matter. because i thought it was absolutely beautiful. we all [me cat brandon] talked about life. and boys. and girls. and whether we thought we had changed at all this year. and brandon wrote me two songs. and i love them. and i wish i was talented enough to write songs. but im not. this week has been soo hard. like u dont even know. but its life. and things change. and ppl change. and thats okay. i think that i think too much. nights like these make me miss summer. i still need to write a summer entry. maybe ill get to it in february or some random month. wen u least expect it :) .
"but summer is still here. all we lost is it's freedom" --shannon :)