no day but today <3 <3
so my mom keeps asking me what i want for christmas this year. and everytime she asks, i cant come up with a single thing. how can that be? when i was young i could list at least 15 things i wanted off the top of my head. no problem. but now--i cant even think of one. so the whole time i was at church tonight i kept thinking about it. about why i cant think of anything i want. and i thought about it like this :
elementary school. was all about who had the most beanie babies. or who had the coolest gameboy. or who could finish their math test first. about who you sat next to at lunch. about who was the prettiest. about who would end up being the line leader. or who played the recorder the best. about how many tamagotchi's (sp?) you had, and how long you could keep those dang suckers alive. about how many clothes you owned from limited too. about whether your artwork was hung up in the hallways.
middle school. was all about how many clothes from abercrombie and hollister you owned. and who liked you. and who signed your yearbook. it was all about who you sat next to at lunch. and what crowd you hung out with. about who made the cheerleading squad, basketball team, or latest musical. about who had the most friends and whose name everyone knew.
high school. maybe nows the point im changing. realizing that life is not about who has the cutest class ring. or who has the nicest car. who got the highest scores on the SAT, who is the best athlete, who is ranked top in the class, whose had the most boyfriends, who wears the cutest clothes, who makes ghp, who is the lead in every play, and who has the nicest cell phone. maybe nows the time that we realize life is not about those material things anymore. maybe the important things in life are the friendships we make and the memories that come with those friendships. maybe its sitting at the movies w/ 3 of my best friends and never running out of anything to talk about. maybe its going to waffle house w/ swim team kids and singing to the jute box. maybe its about dancing out in the rain on a driveway at night with some of your closest friends. maybe its about eating vegetables for breakfast w/ one of your funnest friends. maybe its about going to mass sitting next to 2 of your favorite people, knowing that they have been the ones sitting beside you all your life. maybe its about dancing in glass elevators. maybe its about listening to those songs in your room all by yourself and knowing that that one song has gotten so many people through so many bad times. maybe its about laying down in the middle of a busy highway. maybe its knowing that two of my best friends live right next door and thousands of miles away from me. maybe its about crying your eyes out because your friend is in another state. and yet you know they love you unconditionally and havent forgotten about you. maybe its bawling my eyes out even at the thought of my best friend moving away. maybe its laughing with my mom at the crazy hawks that keep circling around and knowing that she is no doubt one of my best friends. maybe its the fact that my dad gives one of his employees money out of his own pocket because she doesnt know if she can pay her bills. or maybe its looking at the night stars and wondering how you could see something as amazing as that and not have faith. maybe its about these friendships we've made since elementary school. about the countless sleepovers we've been to. and the countless memories we've made. maybe thats why i dont want anything for christmas. because ive realized that material things are no where near the value of friendships. and the feeling you get opening up that present is no where near the infinite feeling you get holding your best friends hand the whole ride to school the morning after you find out she might be moving. maybe those are really the important things in life.
maybe.
