God uses ordinary people, to do extraordinary things
life is so tricky sometimes.
when you think you got it all figured out
you realize that you dont.
then those little things happen
that make you realize
maybe you arent supposed to be figuring it out.
maybe..you are just supposed to be living it
and have that be enough.
i had a lot of those little moments over winter break.
-seeing my best guy friend show up in a big wrapped box outside my front door
all the way from colorado
-singing in my basment the same line ("when memories fade, we've got eachother") at the same time with 4 amazing people. knowing that for some odd reason--i will never forget that moment. because even just singing those little words at the same time--made me feel like us 5 individuals--were one being. and it felt infinite.
-the ski retreat. and saying "youre a miracle to me" and meaning it each and every time. having God show me things i never saw in myself. seeing my best friend pick up skiing skills like a pro. growing closer to people who i thought i couldnt grow any more closer to. sitting on the ski lift in west virginia without a sound in the air...and feeling like we are such a small part of this bigger plan. knowing that the best high is skiing down a slope. staying at the hotel instead of night skiing...with 3 other amazing people..and giving each person a card...that somehow represents who they are...and having such meaningful conversations...that by the end of the night...i realized that we were meant to be there...all together..instead of out skiing. writing notes on the bus ride home with jesse...knowing that i will never ever throw them away. realizing what true love really is.
-Having days where nothing good or bad happens. But just being happy for being alive…because right now..that’s enough for me.
-Saying something that makes someone’s day-even if its so little.
-Realizing that we all affect eachother-and make eachother stronger---"we all get by with a little help from our friends"
-But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because He is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.
Luke 6: 35-36
So maybe im not the best swimmer. Or ranked the top in the class. Maybe I am not the prettiest…or the one that everyone will remember. But right now-ive learned to love myself. Not for what everyone else sees. But for who I am on the inside. And for those little moments in life that make it all worth it.
(pictures later--too tired now lol) :)