jump up ..
jump up ..
and jump down ..

so. . i thought i had it all figured out **finally** i thought i knew what i wanted .. and then nick calls and everything is jumbled up again .. if u kno the situation it's kinda weird. . and i have no idea what to do .. the funny part is both of these ppl are so much alike .. in looks and personality .. it sorta creeps me out cuz somehow i found 2 ( Read more... )

• all sorts of new records have been broken lately ..

forget the past * negative influences are way too abundant .. learn to ignore them .. learn to m.o.v.e. o.n.. things will look up .. people will change .. that's a fact of life .. nothing is for sure. . nothing is guarenteed .. live in RIGHT NOW .. frolic and play .. dance around, laugh til ur ( Read more... )

ok .. so i love helping everyone and listening to their problems and jsut straight out .. being there for them .. but i hate it how i feel like i dont speak up half the time i want to .. and i cant' be really mean and rude when i need to .. i kno that sounds bad but why do i just sit here and act all awesome to ppl when i KNOW that they wouldnt' do ( Read more... )

oooops!! i neva finished my last entry . silllly me

j - Jackson 5 (ahaha old school)
e - evanessance
s - staind
s - sum 41
i - incubus
c - coldplay
a - a*teens (haha)

1) using bands names, spell out your name

J -

E - Evanessence

S - Staind

S -

I -

C - Coldplay

A -  Atomic Kitten

2) have you ever had a song written about you? not to my knowledge :(

3) what song makes you cry? the 9/11 version of HEAVEN

4) what song makes you happy? those hyper way back when songs .. "wake me up .. before u go-go ... "

5) what ( Read more... )

so i've decided. . i'm a bad updater .. but a lot of goood gooood things have been happening lately .. THANK GOD ..

hmm where to start . . . . thankkkss to sue k .. i dont kno how to thank ya enough . . ur the best . who else would drive out to the otha side of CT .. 2 hours away .. two times in a week .. to get me a dress .. now that i'm $340 ( Read more... )

Friday the 13th .. there's been so many of them .. none quite like this .. the massacre that just took place in front of my very eyes .. i sat in my frontyard and screamed .. i've never screamed like that ever .. true agony .. my mom on the other side of the yard .. the look on her face as if she just saw a ghost .. but what we saw was so much ( Read more... )

so .. its' 12:30 and i do have to get up in 5 hours and i cant fall asleep adn i had the longest day everr and i'm crying and it feels so weird cuz i havent cried in soo long and i dont kno why and there's so many things i wish could be different .. and i dont kno what i'm doing or where i'm going in life or waht i want to be or how i want to act ( Read more... )

 there's so much on my mind right now .. i cant' sort out my thoughts. .

first of all .. i'm so sick and tired of all the shit-talking, back-stabbing, arrogant ppl that i have to deal with everyday .. it's driving me crazy .. yea, i'm talking about the leg-spreadin, dirty whores who have nothing better to do than sit there and talk about everyone ( Read more... )