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30 days! vvassup! lurve you guys

and loveyou!

somebody stole what i was going to post. weird. whatever, im gonna live my life, and you can live yours. savvy?

i really hate being followed by my past wherever i go. a lot of people assume that i move so much because im running from myself, and trying to use the location cure, and maybe thats the case, but i really dont do it on purpose, and im really tired of it. but now that im back to a place ive been before, like so many times, rumors abound and stigmas ( Read more... )

i'm cautiously excited about the future to come, and yet i yearn for the past i only just left.
i just wish i could transport the people i want to the places we want, and have enough money to do whatever we wanted wherever we wound up. le sigh.

edit: i just love and miss you, and im scared i can't do this on my own.

completely alone at a table of friends

change is so fucking scary. and yet change is all i know. maybe i'm more scared of stability. i guess i really dont know what to do with myself when everything is calm and collected. i've been rowing in rough seas for so long that my arms paddle too fast in calm waters, and i end up wrecking on shore. i dunno, thats kind of a silly analogy, but you ( Read more... )

i just had a phone conversation with my dad (which is extremely rare) and he told me that he was proud of me. For the first time in years, my father told me he was proud of me. And this is the first time i can remember in quite a long time crying tears of joy. this is a great day. i love you, dad.

Watching her sleep so soundly only makes the realization that i'm in love with her hit me in that face that much harder. This fucking sucks. It's going to be ok someday darling. That much i know..
leah: I love you..
han: I know.

either way, this is going to be hard as hell. again.

and i was wondering if it would hurt/suck less since i've done it so much in the past 3 years,
and the answer is definitively no. It actually sucks more.