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[xooedenoox]

God I am so depressed. All I have been doing is thinking of Josh. I have a "memorial" type thing in my roon on a shelf (with cards & flowers he got me, pictures of him & us, his obitutary/newspaper clipings of the wreck) and every time I pass it I about cry.

I am so pathetic. I miss him so much, but there is nothing I can do now. I wish I could go

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[necr_opheilia]

I couldn't even to begin to imagine what that would be like. I'm so sorry.

Reading this made me so sad, I almost cried.

[xooedenoox]

Thank you. Yeah, it's been really hard for me. This guy I met and totally fell for. We were in "love" after just a few weeks. That might be fast for some people but for me and him it was just right. He made my world go round.

The night he got killed was his bday and I was supposed to be with him. But instead I was still getting ready and told him to go be with his friends...well, they all wrecked. he died and his firends were okay. I feel so bad for telling him to go. I should of said no and made him come to my house and wait with me while I finished but it was his bday so I wanted him to have fun.

I feel like its all my fault.