the thing I realized about me having a journal is that. I usually write when I'm pissed/depressed. Feeling pissed right now- don't know, wanna take the car out, but I swore to Mike last night that I wouldn't if I were mad/crying/anything bad that can cause bad to happen. It is the worst time to drive, I guess that's why I do it though. Noone can ( Read more... )

I AM SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED!! OMG..

I'd never thought it would get this bad..

I can't stop crying. I fucking hate this.

having a sleep over at someones house soon!! oh man i'm so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's 5 a.m. what am i doing?
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this dream.. i don't even know if there is a way to describe it, IS ESTHER OKAY ( Read more... )

it's beautiful right now, i'm sitting in the apartment and i look out the window and it's right into central park.. it's probably one of the most gorgeous sites i've seen. i can sit here all day just thinking about so many things and i can't really do that easily. yesterday when the moving men were coming up and down and my sister was downstairs ( Read more... )

soooooooo i'm finally in new york, i got here yesterday at like 9 somethingish in the morning.. after an hour of sleep.. got the moving started .. got to my sister and brother in laws new apartment and unpacked and still unpacking while them 2 are at work.. papi got here this morning and we ate lunch and we're soon gonna go out to walk and SHOP :) ( Read more... )

wow!! so i'm freaking out right now. i'm leaving to n.y. in G-d willing 6 hours, leaving to the airport in like 4 1/2 .. i'm flipping out, i can't find half the stuff i need to find.. i lost or i believe it was stolen : my von dutch hat which i'm SO freakin pissed about! i can't find new things that i just bought, i can't fucking deal with anything ( Read more... )

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