why arent i at school? heh...i woke up at 7:30 to get on the bus at 7:43 it just doesnt work, so i told hugh i missed the bus, and he said damnit, and went back to sleep? so wherers my ride to school. i cant miss, i will be way to far behind, see when u actually do what ur suppose to do, its a lot to do, i mean i can hardly keep up in math, blah i ( Read more... )

i hate everything about myself, they way i dress just to provoke, the way i smell, only to get close, the way i smile, so flirtatiously, they way im such a prep, and all im trying to do is get attention, cause i feel like i cant get it from david so i go to school, and i try to get it. and i do. i hate myself. what the fuck am i doing i need to ( Read more... )

so tired of life ( Read more... )

maybe atleast, i could *try* to pretend, everything is okay, blah im tired of it, me and david are fine now, we are okay.. and shit, now, every time he comes home WE are okay. but it doesnt change, heh, hes taking the picture of megan out, and i am making him put a picture of yuliana in there, and im giving him a picture of cassie to put in there, ( Read more... )

i read allisons journal, and i had a back flash, of me telling david i woouldnt go out with him cause he was just trying to find a replacement, i told him that he was only going to hurt me, and he said that it wasnt true that he was trying to be happy, and being with me would make him happy, and the first couple of days it did ( Read more... )

IM SO FUSTRATED.

i dont want to stpo writting in here, so this will be turned into *friends*only* not that any of u care anyway.


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blah i just got off the phone, with david, i was mad at him, and he was being an asshole to me, and i was being a bitch to him. blah i kept pressing mute, i cant cry with him knowing im crying. fuck i didnt want him to know. but it was so obvious, whats wrong, with me. i use to cry with him, i use to ball with him, but i cant. i just cant. i want ( Read more... )

WTF, GOD U PEOPLE. HOLD ON I HAVE SOMETHIG TO SAY ( Read more... )

i am taking a break from livejournal now. i am sick of this shit, nothing here gets me anything. but pain, and betrayel. fuck it. this journal can go eat davids balls along with megan. fuck this u people are so retarded. fuck me, its okay, im nothing to any of you anyway. none of u bitches even take the time to read this, and if u do its to use ( Read more... )

i know.

love me.

i know.

love me.

i know.