yeah, i dont know how the fuck i let this happen. i never was into any of this. except for drinking. i never smoked weed until after i graduated high school. i was never into that, i was never into pills either. i dont know what the fuck im doing anymore.
so, i know we haven't talked in a while, but i think we should start again. i don't like reading stuff like this. you probably don't want to hear it, but you're better than that kel. get at me! <3
i agree. i miss you. i thought i was better then this. but apparently you are one of the only people that thinks so. and on top of that, i just cant deal with shit anymore. i promised myself that i wouldnt do this shit. my boyfriend and i just broke up, well like a month ago, because i found out he was still doing oxycotton and coke. let alone cheating on me the whole time we were dating. i know im an idiot for this, but at the same time, i wish i couldnt remember shit, maybe that way nothing will bother me because i wont remember.
i miss you too molly. so much shit has been going on lately. i dont have time for anyone. it sucks. i work everyday of the week, literally, except for sundays. im begining to not have a life. and when i do have one, thats what i do. i mean i dont usually eat pills, only tabs. but im used to smoking and drinking whenever i have free time. because thats what i am around. thats all my friends do. i dont know.
theres plenty of reasons i would do that to myself. i dont do anything anymore other than work. and when i have time to hang out with people, the people i hang out with do it. and i never thought i would end up like them, but i do. ive just grown so acustom to it that its more habit then choice. its hard to explain but like, it just sucks. i dont talk to anyone anymore hardly. my life has just been going down the drain the past 6 months.
Substance abuse can spiral out of control in an instant, lady. If you need help getting your act together.. let me know. I know I sound like a mom, but really, just don't do it and think of the consequences.
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not many people know it though.
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i never was into any of this.
except for drinking.
i never smoked weed until after i graduated high school.
i was never into that, i was never into pills either.
i dont know what the fuck im doing anymore.
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i thought i was better then this.
but apparently you are one of the only people that thinks so.
and on top of that, i just cant deal with shit anymore.
i promised myself that i wouldnt do this shit.
my boyfriend and i just broke up, well like a month ago, because i found out he was still doing oxycotton and coke.
let alone cheating on me the whole time we were dating.
i know im an idiot for this, but at the same time, i wish i couldnt remember shit, maybe that way nothing will bother me because i wont remember.
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so much shit has been going on lately.
i dont have time for anyone.
it sucks.
i work everyday of the week, literally, except for sundays.
im begining to not have a life.
and when i do have one, thats what i do.
i mean i dont usually eat pills, only tabs.
but im used to smoking and drinking whenever i have free time.
because thats what i am around.
thats all my friends do.
i dont know.
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i dont do anything anymore other than work.
and when i have time to hang out with people, the people i hang out with do it. and i never thought i would end up like them, but i do.
ive just grown so acustom to it that its more habit then choice.
its hard to explain but like, it just sucks.
i dont talk to anyone anymore hardly.
my life has just been going down the drain the past 6 months.
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