I guess I can say I'm glade it happend. Not too glade about the end, but glade about the timeing. The feeling won't leave me. It still lingers no matter how hard I try to pretend not to feel that way. As the memories start to fade, it slowly becomes more clear. I started out with someone else in mind and left off with him again.

I've been empty these last few days. Wonder how fast this week will go by? Mallory is staying with me this week, But we are left with nothing to do. I wish I could have seen him before he left. Missing him sucks and I'm left with unanswered feelings. I bet he feels different. I am lost at words.

There was once a time when cocaine was in his eyes. Doing a few lines and haveing a good time. The thought of death didn't cross his mind until he got in the car and started to drive. Death will come near, but will give you a choice. Inside his head, he listoned to the voice. The vioce that told him this was his last chance, to change his life ( Read more... )

My life stands in a good spot. I'm happy. For once, there is no more problems. Nothing to stress about. Nothing to worrie about. Just happyness all around. I do miss leah and michelle. When everything is wonderful, it seems as though there is nothing to write. I love the sun.

Why do things change? Sometimes I like it, sometimes I don't. I like it this time. I hope it stays. But nothing ever stays the same. It changes every month. How will things be next month?

It can't be. I don't want to let myself feel again. I push away, and now my body finds it addicting. Like I have to prtect myself from something that hasn't happpend yet. but then I do want it. If it's going to hurt, it's going to hurt. Take a chance?

I finally feel the sickness leaving my body. They skys are clear and so is my mind. I just want it to stay that way. I have a good feeling about today. I'm feeling it.

Last night is what I can really call insane. The fighting made me want to puke and faint at the same time. I cant handle that. We were haveing fun laughing and haveing a great time until it got busted. I was more afraid for my best friend, than myself. She didnt need to go through all of it again. I don't know if running barefoot in the rain was ( Read more... )

As I look back on memories with my friends; I can't help but laugh. My life is really good and I should not complain about the things that are not important. What a night.

You were out of my mind. Out of my life. Out of my heart. I don't undertstand. Maybe I never will. Or maybe I will, but not at this present time. Why did you have to do that? Why now? I think you are unaware of this. I would do it, But it will only cause problems. There is always a problem. I don't need another one. For now, I just remain ( Read more... )