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i don't really remeber yesterday too much. i remember last night well though.
lauren came over yesterday morning at around 10, then k-ron came over, then i went to school... but i didn't have school.. so i went to sarah's.. then.. something? and blah blah blah. i had a hole in my pants so i went to laurens and changed.. then we went to justins.. and ended up driving shane around the world. we found kim at the highschool so she came with us. then we went to the galleria and did surveys for money so shane could buy a hat.. i gave him all my survey money, but kim didn't cause she needed to eat. i bought lauren lunch and shane never got his hat. he was six dollars short. so we all went to my sisters, and lauren made peace with her and anthony, and we drove shane to guiseppe who was going for a crazy walk with roooby to the galleria. me and kim went for a ride with anthony to pick up matt and coke. brianne and anthony had a party. lauren left, and shane came back over with his new hat. we tried to watch the punisher but.. i don't know what happened with that. then we went to guiseppes and EVERYONE was there. james and hannah and joe and his girlfriend and dan and mike and yeah.. everyone. so we played apples to apples then shanes dad was comming to pick him up so we went back to my house and waited.
then me and kim sat outside my house and smoked a fucking cigarette as her dad and kenny pulled up. she got cought. it's sad because we could have been smoking in the house. i learned that when i ran in the house to tell them kim's not going to be allowed to do anything ever again.
i love kenny.
so after that i had a pounding headache, i was a little buzzed, i drank a little :-/ i suck. so i went to bed, everyone was still at the house. like jesse and crapsoup and nat and just people, when i woke up at 5am everyone was gone. when i woke up at 7am everyone was home and fighting. it was a crazy party. i need a cigarette. i think i should go to bed. i'm going to make comments available again.
i have to go to the doctor now. i hate this.
EDIT: i just got back from deb. i have a lot to talk about. she made some good points, and i knew this was a big deal that i kept down sizing, but it is. jealousy isn't a good thing. i bottle it up and hide it away, so well that i don't even relize it's there after a while, but subconciously it hurts and i break down. how do you tell someone you like them under these circumstances? i don't know what to do, or how to handle this. i'm glad i've let something's go. and i'm glad i don't get bothered by other stuff as much.
deb said i haven't been talking about justin and connecticut as much and she thinks it's good. i think she's right. i havent been to connecticut in 7 weeks by my own choice and i don't feel the need to go there any time soon. there's nothing there for me. i feel like telling everyone i'm sorry. it's not guilt, it's not that i was you to forgive me and take me back, it's truly just flat out sorrow... for everything i said. it was for the better, i think everyone agrees with me on that.
who is your best friend? kim ramos
who do you like? myself
who is your mom? rita
who owns your house? my father
who bought you the clothes your wearing? i'm not wearing anything i own. lmao
who is at your house? right now? just me and my dad
who loves you? i'm not sure anymore.
who said hey to you today? jesse
who are you talking to right now? brian mareca. jeff. kim. and jesse
who was your ex-boy/girlfriend? justin mancini
WHAT
what town do you live in? white plains
what are your pet peeves? none
what are you wearing? laurens ex boyfriends wrestling sweatpants. and madisons tiki barber jersey tee-shirt
what do your teeth look like? big
what are you doing in an hour? going to kims house
what is your middle name? elizabeth
what is your deepest secret? i like a boy who i don't like at all.
what are you doing tomorrow? it's fathers day. nothing.
what is your boy/girlfriends middle name? :( i don't have one
what is in this for you? i like questions
what is your favorite thing to do? talk
what are you sitting on? computer chair
WHERE
where are you at right now? my dad's room
where were you at at 12 noon today? theripist
where is your toothbrush at? the bathroom, retard.
where do you sleep? my bed, in my room... ?
where do you live? new york
where were you at at 7pm yesterday? my sisters house laying on the couch with kim and shane
where is your boy/girl friend? nonenonenonenonenone
where are your parents? no clue where my mom is.. dad's in the kitchen.
where did you put your bookbag? my bedroom floor
where do you keep your socks? i don't wear socks
WHEN
when are you getting a job? soon. spencers
when did you graduate? 28327397YEARSSSS
when will you grow up? NEVER
when are you going to call your friend? in 15 mins
when did you get home last night? i didn't come home lastnight. i got to my sisters at around 11:30
when are you going to stop taking surveys? NEVER
when did you buy a smoothie? jesse always buys me smoothies
when are you getting married? in a couple of years, to shane.
WHY
why are you taking this? waiting for my laundry to be done.
why do fools fall in love? everyone falls in love
why am I weird? because your parents didn't love you.
why are you weird? i'm not weird.
why are you wearing what your wearing right now? because i'm dirty and i never change my cloths
why did you fail that test? i can't remember the last test i failed.
why dont you have friends? i have friends
why did you just do that? this fucking survey blows. i should have read it first.
why cant you get a boy/girl friend? because i don't really want one.
why do you live where your at? why can't you speak english?
HOW
how did you know it was love? i didn't.
how do you fix your hair? blow dry. iron. pig tail messy buns.
how are the kids? alkfdjaldkjflakjdf
how many hours do you spend on the computer? like 2
how many TV shows do you watch? none
how did you find this survey? aldkfjladkjflkajdf I HATE YOU.
how do you like it so far? it sucks just as much as your mom
how may I help you? shot yourself in the face
how do you make sharpies? i don't make sharpies?
how many sharpies do you own? 4
how often do you say I love you? 83729837x a day.