you wanna be just like me? you wanna do just like i do? you wanna do all the things ive done? then why are you just dying your hair like mine and wearing sports bras around the house? why arnt you getting raped up the ass while your unconcious and fucking 45 year olds? why arnt you fucking all 40 of the scum fuck cocks ive rode? wandering down ( Read more... )

ok. you piss in the sink. 

 ive ate like 4 sugar cookies with pink frosting that you buy in a plastic container from big grocery stores today. for some reason i have a stomach ache but eating seems to help....when i lay down i get anxious. at first im just not relaxed and dont want to be laying there, and then pretty soon im pissed off about nothing presently on my mind and ( Read more... )

 i wanna know what it is that makes me wanna fuck things. whatever it is inside me, and kill it. and to all you people that showed me better than i ever knew, go try fucking your own ass, your making things too difficult for me to cope with. its like getting shot up with morphine by someone, and then they just stop and you have this weird ( Read more... )

i live with hollis and brandi and josh now. hollis and brandi are moving out by the first but josh is going to keep living with me. im giong to miss hollis and brandi when theyre gone but i need more privacy and time to myself so its a good thing they are leaving. janessa isnt talking to me anymore. shes mad at me, im not really sure why, because i ( Read more... )

 i cant decide if i want to shave my head again or grow my hair out long....hmm....its a toughie ( Read more... )

oooohh vodka, im coming for you. your sitting on the shelf right now but im will have you as mine. same goes for you ruby red squirt. 

hmm...i wish i was getting drunk tonight. but im not. im going to be sitting in this shithole town doing nothing.

damn i wish i was drunk. ive drank like 3 tilts and theres no more left which means im gonna have to drink beer which sucks, beer makes me gag ( Read more... )

not a whole lot has changed. im on gau now and about to get on to social security. my mental health diagnosis is schizpphrenia so now i get money from the state to live which is alright i guess. i dont have to work which is nice. im living with chris, were in a friends with benefits situation. hes so ridiculously sexy, way too hot for me, but i ( Read more... )