some stuff just needs said
ok I know that like no one in the world reads this but that is ok because its just a place to say stuff that I dont wanna talk about with people sometimes but yeah I dont really care what people are going to have to say about this... its just stuff that needs said
Larry... I just wanna say thanks for being there for me the past couple of days. Yeah I know you're my boyfriend and a lot of people would say thats what you are supposed to do but I really needed someone to listen to me the past couple days and I dont know what I would have done without you. Spending all that time with you this weekend was amazing. I love being with you and getting to see you three days straight was great. I love you
But yeah now onto some thingings that just need put out there.... and I am not naming names but Im sure you can figure it out...
I really dont understand some people that I thought I WAS really close to... Like my one friend calls me and talked to me for the longest time we have talked in a long time and I gave them my opinion on everything they asked me about... and then I turn around and they are doing the complete opposite of everything... and I guess its like a slap in the face. I dont know why I try to make a difference in their life if they are just going to go and live with how it is now and not even care that I sometimes sit in tears over the things that they tell me.... I dont know I am seriously ready to just say fuck you and tell them to stay out of my life if they are gonna cause all this unwanted drama for me... believe me I can live without it...
and then someone that I was close to last year. I barely even talk to them anymore. I dont know where I went wrong or what happened but I sometimes wish that I could go back and just fix it all. They can cause a lot of unwanted drama too. And its like they cant see it when its right in front of their face. I dont care call me stupid but you have to be pretty dumb to have people telling you what is happening right in front of you and you still cant see it... or maybe they just dont want to fix it. I dont know but I think I am done trying to force all of that to be okay to becuase I dont need to be stressed out over things that dont really make a difference in my life...
you can call me mean or whatever you want but I am tired of dealing with everything that I cant fix. I am facing that fact that I cant fix everyones problems I can only help the ones that really want my help...
now I feel better. so you can take this entry any way that you want I really dont care. I am done caring what people are saying about me.