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couldnt be any better said, though im having troubles with the concept of sleeping lately, i sit outside and wait for the old black bus 6:05am rhoutine to take hold, i smoke my cigarettes-point and laugh to all the new helpless faces scrunched by the window.
instead of playing consistent night of everquest, im learning to an extent that it almost comes natural. math is already getting easier, and the foundations have taught me more than i would have ever considered.
its hard, but i love it. im not at all what i was cracked out to be, i came here to get recognition rather than to learn. so i put on my headphones, and i read. i read all night, i take notes, and beat my brain down with contradiction bowls of pot to overcome any sort of boredome.
am i the only one here progressing? or have a sense of direction? you know... if this works out well - i'll stay in college until im old and i suck. ill stay util i have my doctrates and teach people a new form of thought while writing books.
because the tendency is there and so is the equivalency, my main base of thought is how we are taught in college...by metaphors and simplicity.
breakind down logic is easy, so..score one.
besides it being a woodstock academy all over again, ive given myself a chance to redeem my thoughts and talk to mr. spaeth again though im no longer a student of his
i sent him my work, and he recommended "mensa"
which im applying for right now, oh godhod you know i wont get into it, but does it hurt to try? itll look so fucking good....mensa....
anyways. i stay up too late. i dont really even sleep. two hour power naps between every other day doesnt cut it, especially with school now, but it seems im staying up to do work just becaues i want to.
i have to piss really badly, yeah i am a fucking beast
fear my nosering fear my beastly attitude of insanity and disassortment?
i dont know i have to pee