i have about a gallon of mt dew, and i am bored off my ass. i can't get to sleep, and i have nothing to sleep for. jordan's in juvi, and it pisses me off because of how bad i want to see him. so i don't know... i guess i just needed to get that out of my system and let everyone know that is what i'm greatly feeling...

well let's see... there's jordan, and then there's jordan, and then there's always this guy in oregon that's named dan. he seems nice, but not a possibilty of anything more then a friend... the distance and all. well let's see, the 1st jordan, the one that most of my feelings are towards... still locked up. this new jordan, he's older then me, ( Read more... )

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well, let's see, jordan was put in juvenile on wed. for making a "threat", which i'm pretty sure the teacher was just being stupid, and now i haven't talked to him for about... three days, and i'm going crazy about it. i guess i like him alot more then i thought at first. it's like, he has everything that i want and then some. he has the heighth ( Read more... )

We have a 2 hour delay this morning. Oh, joy! I got to sleep in another hour, and it was so nice! But since I know if I went and slept for another hour, until 8, and I wouldn't get up till 9:30, and I would be leaving for school by 9:40. So ya, I had to make myself get up, and I did that by saying, internet is free. So now I am typing this ( Read more... )

alright, on friday night i was supposed to hang out with this guy, aj, right? well i found out he'd been talking to this girl, and she was supposed to be there i guess, fromw hat i heard, so i didn't want to go.. so me and my girl hicks and my other girl hibbard went to the mall. we were just walking around when hicks spotted these two guys who ( Read more... )

ok, so ya, I'm supposed to be going to this party right, were there's this guy that kinda reminds me of Zac right, and well, dunno, maybe something will happen, maybe not, but I'm doubting whether or not I want to do antyhing if it's going to ruin a friendship that might possibly be there, ya know? Megan and Brittany are going with me, so it's ( Read more... )

well... i guess you could say i'm feeling better... i'm with family, and thats all that matters right now.... you could say that I'm borderline about my feelings... they keep changing so suddenly that it's hard to tell what the next feeling will be... I kind of think it's a curse to feel the way i do at such a young age... it's like, i know that i ( Read more... )

Yes a long title for a short paragraph. it's christmas... you know what santa has decided to bring me... the worst day of my life... my grandpa died today. we went over to wish him a merry christmas, and no one answered the door... the tv was turned up and my stupid ill concived grandma was on the god damn phone talking to her fucking neighbor, ( Read more... )

Well... it seems like this time, God has finally said, "Rachal, you've done some bad crap, and now it's time to pay the price." It sounds like I'm an idiot, but I really think so. See, all my friends around me, I don't want to talk to them about my problems, because I don't think they will understand where I'm coming from. You see, my grandpa is ( Read more... )