Lj Idol Week 21 - Bridge

[xreesex]

Growing up, there was a piece of me that always felt less than. A piece of me that knew so much was missing. I was born to a woman incapable of being a mother, a woman so caught up in her own demons she failed to realize how screwed up the children she had bore would become without her around. I spent 26 years believing I was someone impossible to

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[xo_kizzy_xo]

It takes a lot of courage not only to write such a heartfelt piece as this, but also as to actually finding and meeting your birth family. A lot of people I don't think would ever do that for exactly that fear you described, and kudos to your mom for being understanding. I'm so glad you finally found that peace you were missing.

[ellakite]

There have times when I wish my mother had given me up for adoption. I half-joked about it in my early 20s. Half-joked, mind you.

I wish you luck in resolving your issues. I'm over 48 years old, and frequently feel like I will *NEVER* truly resolve mine.

PS: This was deeply moving. Thanks for sharing.

[halfshellvenus]

What an amazing journey you've been through, and such a tough one it was, too. It sounds as if you've managed to find some happiness and peace with both sides of your family, and the love you need to get you through challenges of your own. It seems you've proved it all worth the struggle. Congratulations!

[lawchicky]

That must have been really difficult. Your story was heartfelt and beautifully written.

[whipchick]

"I searched for that love in the arms of too many strange boys, at the bottom of too many ice cream cartons."
Me, too :)

This was a great piece and I liked your intersection! Love how you capture so much of not only your own doubts and fears, but of your mom's and your birth-mother's, too.