blahhhhhhh
hey i havent updating for so effin long and i got a lottttt to say
many many things to say. Well lets start with just a week ago. It was my dads birthday and of course instead of caring about me and my brother and spending it with us he decides to go to the bar. Fucker. And I was really hoping that when he drove home he would crash. Cuz I cant stand him. So it was 11:30 and I went to bed. And when I went to bed I was sitting there thinking “hes not gonna come home. Im not going to make it to school.” And I fell asleep. Next thing I knew my brother woke me up and hes like “Shelby wake up! Dad just left!” and I was like what? And hes like its ten to seven! My dad usually wakes us up at 6:15. then I look in his room and hes sleeping. So I got dressed and my brother got him to get up to take us home. And then my brothers like “Dad! You gotta drive me to school!” and hes like ok. And he miss the turn and all this crap. Oh and he didn’t even say goodbye..BITCH BITCH BITCH MOTHERFUCKER!
Anyways I faked sick yesterday. Well you can say that I guess. Long story. Don’t wanna talk about it. Its over now.
I get to see jimmy Friday! Yay im happy. Lol. Yea Im leaving to go shopping for my sweater in a little bit!!! Yay! I absolutely love sweaters!
Well I told angie id post pictures up so here they are…..
haha weird face!!
austina
whoa! Up close!
cute little fairy!!!
stacy with her make up done
austina looking crabby
me and stacy in our COSTUMES and my fat arm!
ISSAC! I baby sit him hes adorable
issac and me!
I fuckin love the used! This is my favorite picture of them!
And here are some icky pictures of me!
ick I haaaaattttteee my teeth!
I don’t know whats up with my face
yea that’s gross
where my kiss?
my face looks weird
whose up there?
blahh
I look mad
I look sooooo white!!! Im not that white!
pretty pretty!
my keyboard!
I never said id take this lying down
I love hooded sweatshirts!
I look like a fag! (fag= bundle of sticks)
Yea they’re beautiful nooottttttttt. Anyway I got a question…does anyone know what this means cuz its my favorite song from the used and I don’t understand it…
“when the shirt came off
it was all in time
when a minute turned into a mile
and I broke that grin and cut it out
and he got all turned on by the taste of your sin
when I mention blue
all you thought was color
when you mention drugs
all I thought was sober
and your pants came off
and I turned you over
and you mention blue”
wtf!? I don’t get it! Help me!
Ok heres something I wrote and ill be done with this entry!
Nothing ever lasts
Everything is fake
Don’t bother lying angel
The truth always unfolds
Everything always unfolds
Always
Can I be your always
I promise you can be mine
Don’t bother
Youll just mess it up more
Everything will be ruined
Everything is always ruined
Suicide was my denstiny
Will you change it
Will you shoot me?
just change it
change everything
its ur only chance
get ur gun
3....2...1...
what happened?
just pull the trigger
you dont love me
grab ur guts
blow me away
nothins gonna blow me away
ill sell my soul to you
as long as i have your attention
do what u want with it
where are you?
oh of course
its her
im not here
im never here when shes around
dont take notice
but i just died
many many things to say. Well lets start with just a week ago. It was my dads birthday and of course instead of caring about me and my brother and spending it with us he decides to go to the bar. Fucker. And I was really hoping that when he drove home he would crash. Cuz I cant stand him. So it was 11:30 and I went to bed. And when I went to bed I was sitting there thinking “hes not gonna come home. Im not going to make it to school.” And I fell asleep. Next thing I knew my brother woke me up and hes like “Shelby wake up! Dad just left!” and I was like what? And hes like its ten to seven! My dad usually wakes us up at 6:15. then I look in his room and hes sleeping. So I got dressed and my brother got him to get up to take us home. And then my brothers like “Dad! You gotta drive me to school!” and hes like ok. And he miss the turn and all this crap. Oh and he didn’t even say goodbye..BITCH BITCH BITCH MOTHERFUCKER!
Anyways I faked sick yesterday. Well you can say that I guess. Long story. Don’t wanna talk about it. Its over now.
I get to see jimmy Friday! Yay im happy. Lol. Yea Im leaving to go shopping for my sweater in a little bit!!! Yay! I absolutely love sweaters!
Well I told angie id post pictures up so here they are…..
haha weird face!!
austina
whoa! Up close!
cute little fairy!!!
stacy with her make up done
austina looking crabby
me and stacy in our COSTUMES and my fat arm!
ISSAC! I baby sit him hes adorable
issac and me!
I fuckin love the used! This is my favorite picture of them!
And here are some icky pictures of me!
ick I haaaaattttteee my teeth!
I don’t know whats up with my face
yea that’s gross
where my kiss?
my face looks weird
whose up there?
blahh
I look mad
I look sooooo white!!! Im not that white!
pretty pretty!
my keyboard!
I never said id take this lying down
I love hooded sweatshirts!
I look like a fag! (fag= bundle of sticks)
Yea they’re beautiful nooottttttttt. Anyway I got a question…does anyone know what this means cuz its my favorite song from the used and I don’t understand it…
“when the shirt came off
it was all in time
when a minute turned into a mile
and I broke that grin and cut it out
and he got all turned on by the taste of your sin
when I mention blue
all you thought was color
when you mention drugs
all I thought was sober
and your pants came off
and I turned you over
and you mention blue”
wtf!? I don’t get it! Help me!
Ok heres something I wrote and ill be done with this entry!
Nothing ever lasts
Everything is fake
Don’t bother lying angel
The truth always unfolds
Everything always unfolds
Always
Can I be your always
I promise you can be mine
Don’t bother
Youll just mess it up more
Everything will be ruined
Everything is always ruined
Suicide was my denstiny
Will you change it
Will you shoot me?
just change it
change everything
its ur only chance
get ur gun
3....2...1...
what happened?
just pull the trigger
you dont love me
grab ur guts
blow me away
nothins gonna blow me away
ill sell my soul to you
as long as i have your attention
do what u want with it
where are you?
oh of course
its her
im not here
im never here when shes around
dont take notice
but i just died