Entrance, stage left. Elaine walks onto the set.
i kind of wanted to stay at home last night, to get some extra rest for the new job starting tomarrow, but im giving up my freedom to be a corporate slave, so what the hell, why not go out? im glad i did. Elaine is very interesting. we like each other alot, and i think things just may work out.
they were getting familiar. the exchanged glances now and then, that lasted a couple of seconds too long for them to mean nothing. i had a feeling she was interested, but i was told she had a boyfriend. she did, until a month ago.
she mentioned livejournal, so my ears perked up. i said ive been using it for a while, and she asked my username. which means, of course, inevitably she is going to read this. Hi, Elaine! im curious to see her journal too, so fair enough.
100 bits of torn tin foil (dont ask), some coffee, an afterparty, and a kung-fu movie at my house. 4 am and i am showing her the tao te ching (its a book you perverts) and pictures of my kids.
were both a little shy, alone in my room at like 4:30 in the morning. add to this my new efforts at embracing the yin (passive, re-active energy) and things were almost at a stalemate. we were both kind of laughing at ourselves over this. as we know i can abandon all sense of shyness when need be, and my yang energy (active) is ummm...functional. so i was waiting it out, being active only enough to keep things flowing.
"so," i say with a smile "you've been hanging out with me *all* night long..."
"are you going to put some moves on me or what?" i said.
ok so maybe sometimes im over the top. i admit it. that makes me fun though right? she didnt really know how to answer that one so i threw in..
"because if you are...id be completly okay with that."
i got a laugh at least. i could tell she liked me, so i wanted to make it clear i liked her too.
she wasnt liking the ball in being in her court all the time. i didnt want to make her uncomfortable, so i tried to take over...just a little, bit (^.-)
we were getting shy again as we struggled to think of those weird questions you ask someone your trying to get to know. i'd had enough of the anticipation. it was getting late (early). i really just wanted a warm, soft body next to mine, and some tender arms around me as i laid in bed. i was getting sleepy, and i just cant stand for things to be too awkward for long. im ready to fix this.
"are you an affectionate person? do you like to cuddle alot, or do you like your own space" i ask.
"depends" she says "a little of both, it depends on who im with, etc"
allright i think, fair enough. exit tiger, enter dragon.
"im a cuddle-slut", i admit to her. i am, and its no secret.
no real response....
"would you like to cuddle with me, Elaine?" i ask.
"yes" she says. i can hear the relief and enthusiasm in her voice. i like it.
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....this feels good.
we cuddle all night (what was left of it) and fooled around a little, but didnt have sex. i dont mind. everything was going right all night long, so i *was* kind of hoping it would continue all the way, but really, im glad it didnt...in the long run anyways....hahah!
she confessed she'd never had a one night stand, and didnt plan to. she was uncomfortable sleeping with someone on the first date. completly understandable. whats better is that i take this to mean there are dates to come, more time spent together. maybe, hopefully, a relationship, which is what im really looking for.
eventually she had to leave. she left me her phone number, and i was surprised. not that she gave me the number, but she actually seemed worried that i might not call...which reminds me...
after the movie, i remember her saying.
"hey, if your tired, and you want to kick me out, thats ok. just let me know"
"haha!, thats *NOT* going to happen" i say. shit...i wouldnt kick this girl out of my bed for eating crackers.
i find this funny, becuase i remember being at kimba's place, asking kimba the same thing, i knew exactly how Elaine felt. not sure whether to stay or go. really wanting to stay, but not wanting to stay too long. kimba of course, gave me no answer, the worst thing possible. if she said anything it was "i dont care". yeah, big help. so having Elaine ask me this very same question was a big relief. pretty ironic, almost like a sign or an omen. i was glad to make her feel welcome.
so...anyways. i'll be giving her a call soon. ^.-
they were getting familiar. the exchanged glances now and then, that lasted a couple of seconds too long for them to mean nothing. i had a feeling she was interested, but i was told she had a boyfriend. she did, until a month ago.
she mentioned livejournal, so my ears perked up. i said ive been using it for a while, and she asked my username. which means, of course, inevitably she is going to read this. Hi, Elaine! im curious to see her journal too, so fair enough.
100 bits of torn tin foil (dont ask), some coffee, an afterparty, and a kung-fu movie at my house. 4 am and i am showing her the tao te ching (its a book you perverts) and pictures of my kids.
were both a little shy, alone in my room at like 4:30 in the morning. add to this my new efforts at embracing the yin (passive, re-active energy) and things were almost at a stalemate. we were both kind of laughing at ourselves over this. as we know i can abandon all sense of shyness when need be, and my yang energy (active) is ummm...functional. so i was waiting it out, being active only enough to keep things flowing.
"so," i say with a smile "you've been hanging out with me *all* night long..."
"are you going to put some moves on me or what?" i said.
ok so maybe sometimes im over the top. i admit it. that makes me fun though right? she didnt really know how to answer that one so i threw in..
"because if you are...id be completly okay with that."
i got a laugh at least. i could tell she liked me, so i wanted to make it clear i liked her too.
she wasnt liking the ball in being in her court all the time. i didnt want to make her uncomfortable, so i tried to take over...just a little, bit (^.-)
we were getting shy again as we struggled to think of those weird questions you ask someone your trying to get to know. i'd had enough of the anticipation. it was getting late (early). i really just wanted a warm, soft body next to mine, and some tender arms around me as i laid in bed. i was getting sleepy, and i just cant stand for things to be too awkward for long. im ready to fix this.
"are you an affectionate person? do you like to cuddle alot, or do you like your own space" i ask.
"depends" she says "a little of both, it depends on who im with, etc"
allright i think, fair enough. exit tiger, enter dragon.
"im a cuddle-slut", i admit to her. i am, and its no secret.
no real response....
"would you like to cuddle with me, Elaine?" i ask.
"yes" she says. i can hear the relief and enthusiasm in her voice. i like it.
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....this feels good.
we cuddle all night (what was left of it) and fooled around a little, but didnt have sex. i dont mind. everything was going right all night long, so i *was* kind of hoping it would continue all the way, but really, im glad it didnt...in the long run anyways....hahah!
she confessed she'd never had a one night stand, and didnt plan to. she was uncomfortable sleeping with someone on the first date. completly understandable. whats better is that i take this to mean there are dates to come, more time spent together. maybe, hopefully, a relationship, which is what im really looking for.
eventually she had to leave. she left me her phone number, and i was surprised. not that she gave me the number, but she actually seemed worried that i might not call...which reminds me...
after the movie, i remember her saying.
"hey, if your tired, and you want to kick me out, thats ok. just let me know"
"haha!, thats *NOT* going to happen" i say. shit...i wouldnt kick this girl out of my bed for eating crackers.
i find this funny, becuase i remember being at kimba's place, asking kimba the same thing, i knew exactly how Elaine felt. not sure whether to stay or go. really wanting to stay, but not wanting to stay too long. kimba of course, gave me no answer, the worst thing possible. if she said anything it was "i dont care". yeah, big help. so having Elaine ask me this very same question was a big relief. pretty ironic, almost like a sign or an omen. i was glad to make her feel welcome.
so...anyways. i'll be giving her a call soon. ^.-